(Minghui.org) A few years ago, our local coordinator was forced to become homeless and destitute to avoid being persecuted. In her absence, our local practitioners did not cooperate with one another, and as a result, we were unable to get copies of Minghui Weekly and Master’s lectures.
A coordinator from another area came to our residence, studied the Fa, and shared her experiences with us. She indirectly indicated that we should begin to coordinate our local group by ourselves. I understood that if we all cultivated ourselves well, our local practitioners would also cooperate well.
As a matter of fact, I also secretly desired to become our local coordinator. My enlightened self and my true nature wanted me to. However, due to the vicious environment and pressure caused by the communist regime, I was afraid that I might be persecuted if I did not cultivate myself well. I was also afraid of difficulties. That was why I hesitated.
The coordinator from out of town visited me several times. She patiently talked to me and selflessly helped me. Through her, I saw the mightiness of Dafa, the bright future and hope that Dafa cultivation can bring me. After clearing my mental hurdles, I took on the responsibilities to coordinate our local tasks. At first, I did not know what to, how to, or why coordinate. Being an introverted person who was fond of living a simple and quiet life, I first felt like my personality conflicted with being a coordinator, since I have to socialize with people in order to coordinate well. I realized that I had to overcome my own shortcomings, let go of my self, and walk on the path of Fa-rectification.
Experience sharing articles by fellow practitioners helped me to enlighten. I also talked with coordinators from other places to learn from them how to coordinate. Gradually, my thoughts broadened, and the capacity of my mind expanded. Particularly after I intensified my Fa-study, I found clear solutions to my questions.
Initially I thought that I would just give it a try, and because this thought was not righteous, problems followed. On the way to a veteran practitioner’s residence, the out-of-town coordinator and my husband detoured to another practitioner’s home.
After a discussion, they installed the New Tang Dynasty TV (NTDTV) satellite dish on his house. Before returning home, the coordinator reminded my husband to go back to that practitioner’s house and check the satellite reception in order to make sure that the practitioner could watch NTDTV without a problem. Since my husband had forgotten how to adjust the satellite receiver, he asked me to go and check it for him.
When I arrived at the practitioner’s house, he yelled at me, complaining that there were lots of problems with the dish. I was baffled and thought to myself, “I do not know the specifics, but I know that you gave them permission to install the satellite dish.” I was very upset by how this practitioner treated me.
I then understood how hard it must have been for the former coordinator in our area. While I was thinking, I cried. From the perspective of the Fa, I realized that it was my karma that had triggered the venting of this practitioner's anger. The old forces took advantage of my karma and intensified my problems. They intended to make me lose my righteous thoughts and keep us all from saving sentient beings.
Understanding the situation from the perspective of the Fa, I could see the evil conspiracy. I calmed down and listened to the practitioner’s complaints. I explained to him how important and significant the role of NTDTV is. He changed his attitude and said smiling, "I was wrong. I should not have treated you like I did. Please adjust the satellite dish for me again.” (The dish had been torn down). He apologized to me repeatedly. Seeing how he had changed so dramatically, I witnessed the mighty virtue and power of the Fa.
I realized that we Dafa disciples must strengthen our righteous thoughts when validating the Fa. As long as our heart is in the Fa, and we constantly look inward and rectify ourselves with the wisdom that Dafa gives us, we will be able to see through every evil plot, negate the old forces' arrangements, and walk on the path of Fa-rectification.
I had the tendency to rely on other practitioners and was afraid to take on the task to coordinate. I was unwilling to contact more practitioners because I wanted to protect myself. One practitioner was concerned about the cultivation state of another practitioner and shared her concerns with me. Instead of offering help, I told her to go ask someone else for help. She was very disappointed and, with harsh words and in an accusing tone, she asked, “Who else do you think can go help him?” Speechless, I immediately looked inward.
On my way home, Master’s “Fa Lecture to Australian Practitioners” echoed in my ears. I realized that I should lay down my attachments of relying on others, and eliminate my fear of helping practitioners. Therefore, I later followed the practitioner who had criticized me to the other practitioner’s residence.
While thinking about the Fa, I cleansed my mind of any distractions. I calmly shared with him what I believed were the major issues that we had in cultivation. He said excitedly, "You've changed. You were not like this before. Sharing with you right now, I can feel that both my heart and body are at ease.” I replied, "This is Dafa's mighty virtue.” When we left that day, he escorted us for a long time and was very reluctant to leave us. He invited us to come see him more often. I could feel that, since there were no other practitioners in his area, he was very lonely. The practitioner who went with me also improved her xinxing. She told me, “You don’t need to worry about going to his house anymore. I’ll go by myself."
A practitioner was once illegally arrested, and we made efforts to rescue her. Practitioners from out of town came help send forth righteous thoughts close by to eradicate the evil in other dimensions. Her family, also practitioners, went to the appropriate agencies and her work unit to clarify the truth and distribute pamphlets for an appeal. We spent manpower, time, and money, but three months later, that practitioner was still sentenced. A big gap existed between our original idea and the final results, and that gap was related to our xinxing.
First, I had conflicts with other practitioners: I blamed, complained, was jealous, and angry with them; I wanted to prove myself and was arrogant. These human attachments added negative factors into the overall environment of our group, thus weakening our overall strength. I had failed to improve when it was time for me to do so. I realized that when we use human hearts to do Fa-rectification tasks, the results cannot be good.
My husband and another practitioner were arrested for posting truth-clarification materials. With the help of other practitioners, we went to the head of the national security bureau that night and advised him not to participate in the persecution of practitioners. But controlled by evil factors, he did not want to listen. On the way home, my heart was heavy, and I lost confidence. I believed that, because I did not cultivate well, I could not dissolve the factors behind the evil forces, and that was the reason why I was not able to rescue him. Wasn’t that mentality caused by attachments to fame and gain?
When I returned home, I continued searching inside myself and revisited my cultivation status. I recalled how disrespectful I was toward my husband, how I misunderstood and blamed him. Because of my poor xinxing, I left loopholes for the old forces to take advantage of, which disrupted our attempts to validate the Fa and save sentient beings. The evil forces wanted to ruin us.
As I continued to search within in tears, my heart was full of tremendous shame and pain. Respect and understanding are traditional Chinese virtues. I had to learn to respect my husband, fellow practitioners, and other people. I calmed down and began to study the Fa, send forth righteous thoughts, and adjust and correct my point of view for saving sentient beings and rescuing fellow practitioners.
The mentality to treat sentient beings compassionately arose in me: no grudges and no hatred. Afterward, I went to the residence of the head of the 610 Office and talked to him about the universal values of ethics, sincerity, and kindness. My sincerity and kindness touched him, and he promised that he would release my husband and the other practitioner. During all this time, I had been looking inward. Both my husband and the other practitioner are home now.
The process of learning how to coordinate was also a process of rectifying the Fa, as well as a process of enhancing my xinxing.
This is my personal experience. Please kindly point out anything inappropriate.