(Minghui.org) I have faced many medical issues and had six surgeries, including three for my heart, one ovarian cyst removal, and an ectopic pregnancy. In August 2010 I was diagnosed with breast cancer.
Even after I found out that I had cancer, I still managed to control my mind. I endured the pain of surgery, chemotherapy, and radiation therapy. The agony of this pain was beyond what average people could imagine. I was passive and felt lonely, but I still had hope. I was still looking for some way to change this bad situation.
When I went home after surgery, one of my sisters came to visit me. She practiced Falun Gong and recommended that I practice with her, but I ignored her. However, my classmate came to my house and recited with my sister every day, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!” My husband saw that and said, “After I retire, I will practice with your sister.”
I still did not change my mind. Maybe at that time my predestined relationship with Dafa had not come yet. While suffering from the chemotherapy and radiation therapy, deep in my mind I could not stay calm. I believed in Buddha and realized that I had too much karma from my previous lives, so I should suffer this much.
I lived by myself and was very lonely since my husband left home for his business. I felt a lot of pressure. Some of the time I could not stand it anymore. Sometimes I wanted to cry after I watched TV for a while. A good friend moved away from our town, which also made me cry.
Another patient with the same disease as me died and was only 36, which also made me cry. I was stuck feeling depressed for a long time. Looking at our three bald heads in my pictures, I cried every day. When my patient friend passed away, it hit me big time. I knew I might have developed depression, and I could not stand to be that way anymore, so I deleted all of my pictures that were taken with the other patients.
I decided to cheer myself up. My mother-in-law used to be a Falun Gong practitioner a long time ago. After being persecuted by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), she gave up and chose to believe in Buddhism. She knew Falun Dafa was good and still knew many of the principles. Sometimes she recited Lunyu. Her heart disease was healed by practicing Falun Gong. She said , “You should practice Falun Dafa, so you can be purified. You are so kind; Master will take care of you.”
My sister talked to me many times, and it seemed that my predestined relationship with Dafa had arrived. In September 2011, I started to read Zhuan Falun. I studied the Fa with my sister so that we could improve together. Later I realized that many people want to be practitioners but cannot. In the Dharma-ending period, it is so hard to obtain Dafa. I was very lucky!
I had kept one copy of Zhuan Falun for 14 years. I recalled when the CCP started to persecute Falun Gong, my mother-in-law was afraid that the Dafa books would be taken away. I saw that she was in a tough situation, so I said: “Mom, you can give the book to me. They will not search for that in my house.” My mother-in-law agreed and gave me a copy of Zhuan Falun . I had kept the book ever since.
I decided to practice Falun Gong, but my sister was concerned, since we did not have a book, and they are hard to find. I told her that I had one and showed her the copy of Zhuan Falun , which still looked new, and that I had kept the book in my house for 14 years. My sister smiled and said, “So, you have had a predestined relationship for a long time with this Zhuan Falun .”
The book problem was solved. My sister and I started to change the words in this early edition as required. I needed to work in the daytime, so I only had time in the evenings to correct them. I typed out all the words that needed to be changed. Every night my sister and I worked together to change the words until midnight. She accompanied me all the time.
Half a month later we finished correcting the incorrect words in this edition of Zhuan Falun . I could not go to bed until midnight. I still needed to go to work in the morning, however I did not feel tired or sleepy. But at that time I was weak. Every day after I came home from work, I laid down because I did not have any energy. If I walked to the second floor, I needed to rest for a while. How could I have so much energy while correcting the words? Wasn’t this a miraculous thing about cultivation of Dafa? With Master and Dafa, what should I be afraid of?
After we finished correcting the words, I was very happy to read the book. Every day I studied several lectures in Zhuan Falun . On one occasion, I felt dizzy when I got up at midnight, and I almost could not stand up. I went to the bathroom. The next morning I could not get up. I laid on the bed, and whenever I opened my eyes, the bed was moving. I called my sister immediately. She came and cooked corn porridge for me. At that time I did not have any fear because I knew it was Master purifying my body for me. I laid in bed for a whole morning. In the afternoon I could get up to read. My sister worried about me and said that I could not enlighten by myself. She also worried about whether or not I could hold up.
One day, the part of my body where I had surgery hurt badly. My back and even my whole body hurt. I used to be weak, and now I could not stand up. So I laid in bed and went to the bathroom frequently. I knew Master was purifying my body, so I was not scared at all. I kept studying the Fa. My sister asked me how I felt. I told her that I was OK. She smiled and said, “I was concerned about you. Apparently you are fine and realized it all by yourself.”
I read the Dafa book for a long time, and then I started to practice the exercises. Miraculously, even though I could not raise one of my arms that had been affected by surgery, this did not affect my ability to do the wheel-holding positions in the second exercise. In everyday life, I could not raise that arm, but I was able to raise it to do the exercises. After doing the exercises for several days, that arm had a lot of swelling and accumulation of liquid similar to my back. It was very itchy, but I dared not scratch it. I realized it was Master adjusting my body for me, so I did not scratch it or look at it. My sister asked me if it itched. I said it would be fine as I knew it was Master adjusting my body, so I did not have any fear.
Every week I attended three different Fa-study groups, where we studied the Fa and communicated with fellow practitioners, so I was able to improve very fast.
Sometimes I studied Zhuan Falun and other new articles written by Master with my sister, and sometimes I practiced the exercises with my sister. I felt that if I wanted to assist Master to rectify the Fa, I have to study the Fa well and behave strictly in accordance with the Fa principles. Each and every day I have to behave like a practitioner, constantly uplifting myself.
Through constant Fa-study, I kept elevating my mind. I read Minghui Weekly and found so many practitioners doing really well. They could break though the Internet firewall to log onto the Minghui website. I had the thought that I also wanted to log onto our own Minghui website, write something, and do something for Dafa.
I just had that thought, and then a fellow practitioner came to help me. Master sent a technical practitioner to help me log onto the Minghui website so I could download Master’s new articles and Minghui Weekly . I helped my fellow practitioner to get an MP5 player. I logged onto the Epoch Times website to post the announcements of non-practitioners who wanted to quit the CCP and its organizations. Many people quit the CCP with my help. When I saw them being saved, I was so happy for them.
As Master said in Zhuan Falun : “Cultivation depends on one’s own efforts, while the transformation of gong is done by one’s master.”
I realized that saving people appeared to be done by us on the surface, but actually it is being done by Master, as long as our xinxing is good enough. Then Master’s fashen will strengthen us and save that human being and the numerous sentient beings that person represents. It is Master and Dafa that truly save the sentient beings. However, we have to clarify the truth with a pure mind.
I studied Zhuan Falun again and again with sincerity and realized many principles from it. Each time I read the book, I gained more benefits.
One day, my friend and I went shopping in Walmart, and we were walking to her house to eat. When we were ready to cross the road, it felt as if someone pushed my right side. I said, “Who pushed me?” And I was thinking, “On such a wide road, who would push me?” I turned around and saw that a car passed by me on my right side. My friend said, "Look yourself over to see if you have been hurt." I said, "I will be fine." I was thinking that, with Master’s help, I would be OK.
Master said:
“A while back, some Dafa disciples had not yet stepped forward, so we had to wait and do our best to have them come forth. But the time for this is running out. When I saw students who came out of China, I urged them to tell the students who haven’t stepped forward to quickly do so—to have them quickly find those lost students and spell the facts out for them, for what they otherwise face is a most tragic of ends. Cultivation is no trifling matter. And that’s especially so for Dafa disciples, who shoulder such great historic missions. Bound up in that mission is the survival, the life or death, of simply countless beings. Wouldn’t you call that something major?” (“20th Anniversary Fa Teaching”)
My mother-in-law stopped practicing Falun Gong several years ago. I talked to her several times. But whenever she was asked to quit the CCP, she refused. She is very stubborn. This April, she had a kidney stone. She had had one before. We took her to the hospital to be treated, and she suffered a lot. On the fourth day, she had another kidney stone. She knelt down on the floor and said, “Let me die; I am going to die.” I told her, “This will not kill you. It is just a small tribulation. If you get through it, you will be fine.”
We took her to the hospital again for the new stone. My sister came to visit her and talked to her for the whole afternoon. Before she left, my mother-in-law agreed to think quitting the CCP. That evening she went to bed early. My husband slept on the couch. I went to a small room to do the exercises. I heard my mother-in-law ask my husband, “Where is Xiaoqing?” My husband said, “She is sleeping.” My mother-in-law went back to her room. The next morning, she asked me, “Did you see me last night?” I told her no. That night, my mother-in-law had dreamed that a person in white came to her room. She brought me a pair of white pajamas the person in the dream was wearing. In her dream, the person dressed in white looked at her and left. She got up and called my name, “Are you Qing?” Then she woke up. She realized that it was my assistant consciousness that had come to see her. Maybe we had some predestined relationship in our previous life. When she got up to see us, I was doing the exercises.
After that, she decided to quit the CCP. Just a few days before, she had refused to quit, no matter how hard we tried. Now all of a sudden she figured it out. I was very glad for her.
Two days later, she had another kidney stone. That was May 1, a holiday, and most doctors were not working. We tried four different hospitals. The doctor that had helped her before was in Harbin. We were told that the doctor would return in four days. She had an ultrasound exam, and we all saw a big stone inside. We came home.
Everyone was busy. My mother-in-law and I stayed at home. When she had the ultrasound, she drank a bottle of water. Later she went to the bathroom again and again. I thought about it: She only drank one bottle of water; why does she keep using the bathroom? I though it must be Master helping her remove her stone.
In the evening she said she was OK now and had no more pain. At that time, she was getting an IV. She said she had a bitter taste in her mouth, so I thought she should stop the IV. Later she asked that the IV be stopped. All of a sudden, she went from taking medicine all the time to living without any pills or drugs. She said Master was taking care of her again. I said Master would not give up on even one disciple.
The above was my understanding while I was at the beginning of my cultivation. If anything here is not right, please do not hesitate to point it out. Thank you, Master!