(Minghui.org) Falun Dafa granted me new life. I give great thanks to Master Li Hongzhi and Dafa!
I was considered to be a capable woman before I practiced Falun Dafa. I was smart, hard working, and good at dealing with people. I could do whatever others could do and each year I was chosen as an exemplary worker. In the late 80s, I quit my job and ran my own company. I bribed the traffic police to give my company’s trucks preferential treatment. I had a bulldozer project and I used the state policy loopholes to buy goods at low prices and sell them for higher prices. Later, I ran the company with one partner, but he squandered all the money and I had to pay off the debt. As a result, I went bankrupt.
I was diagnosed with late stage breast cancer in 1992. My right breast was removed at a hospital. The surgery began at 7:00 am and continued until 6:00 pm. I stayed in the hospital for three years. Every day I had albumin injections. I had all kinds of radiotherapy and chemotherapy that caused me to frequently pass out. Ten thousand yuan every month was spent on my cancer treatments and I had a miserable life.
Sometimes, I would be very upset, because in the past, I was a capable woman who was respected and feared by all. I now had such a miserable life! The money I saved from the past business would soon be spent.
The cancer spread to my lymph system, causing me to lose control of my bowels and experience difficulty breathing. I also had heart problems that did not respond to any of the medications that were tried. My husband played disco music loudly to annoy me and my heart could not stand it. I had no other choice but to move out of our house and into the garage while I waited to die.
I felt only suffering and hatred and did not have any comfort from my family. I set about preparing my clothes for my burial. In the past, in order to make a fortune and have my sicknesses cured, I visited many temples and became a lay Buddhist. In the end I had evil possession of my body.
I decided to spend two thousand yuan to invite a specialist to come to my house to drive away evil possessing entities. I had no energy to make my own meals, so I planned to have my neighbor help me. My neighbor was a warm-hearted person who practiced Falun Dafa. She told me that people who practiced Falun Dafa could not heal other people’s illnesses, so I decided not to learn. However, I decided to go to her house anyway and ask for help. She said her Master could help me and I didn’t need to spend one penny. I then decided to learn Falun Dafa.
My neighbor was afraid that I might not be sincere about learning Falun Dafa and so she asked me, “Do you really want to practice Falun Dafa?” I told her yes. She gave me the Falun Dafa medallion that she wore around her neck. That night while wearing the medallion, I had the most comfortable sleep I ever had in my whole life! I was so pleased.
Once I learned to do the exercises, I felt my breathing become much easier. However, when I was practicing the exercises on the fourth day, I could not exhale and my face turned blue. My daughter rushed to my neighbor's house and told her about my problem. The neighbor ran to me and asked if I could agree to sincerely practice Falun Dafa or not? I said definitely, “Yes, I will practice!” She and my daughter then helped me go to her house.
I started to practice the exercise movements before Master’s photo. While I was practicing the third exercise, something dropped from my body. I felt a “release” and could now stand firmly. I finished the exercises and walked home by myself. This miraculous change strengthened my confidence to practice Dafa. I began to clean up my environment by throwing away or burning any negative items that I found in my home. From then on I firmly believed in Dafa.
I kept studying the Fa and began to realize that all my suffering was the result of my fighting with other people. Everyone, including my neighbors and co-workers, were all afraid of me. Even my son commented that I was a very angry person. For example, while I was staying in the hospital in 1979, the pharmacy limited my usage of penicillin and streptomycin due to shortages of the drug. I was verbally abusive to the female pharmacist to such an extent that her husband told me, “Stop scolding her; she is on the way to get your drug.”
When my neighbor bad-mouthed me, I used a stick to smash her window. The neighbor had to move out of her house following that episode. When an official offended me, I threatened to have some bad guys come to fix him or have his work superior lay him off. Now the time to pay off my karma had arrived!
I experienced toothaches and coughing for eight months after starting to practice Falun Dafa. I was so weak that I had to lie down to listen to my fellow practitioners read the Fa. I knew that this was resolving my karma. With strong righteous thoughts I came through that period. My body was then fresh and very flexible and light. Later, I did not have any illnesses.
I am now in my 70s with a simple, pure mind. I am considerate of others and deeply regret all of my past wrong deeds. I would apologize to the people who were hurt by me if we met again. I won’t cover-up my shortcomings. My old neighbor moved back and we became good friends.
People who knew me all said, “To determine whether Falun Dafa is good or bad one only needs to look at her. She used to be the first one to start a fight and scheme to earn money, but now she has become a very good person since practicing Falun Dafa.” Therefore, after I began to practice Falun Dafa for just a few days, many came to practice Falun Dafa also. It was Falun Dafa that completely changed me inside and out.
I have clarified the truth to people since 1999 when the lies and the persecution of Falun Dafa started by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). Whenever I met people, I would chat with them and find opportunities to tell them the truth. If I met someone who was carrying something heavy, I would help them carry it and talk to them along the way. When I left my home I did not know when I would come back. I had endless energy and thought, “My Master let me come to help me awaken you.” In the evening I would hand out Falun Dafa informational materials, and put up stickers and banners with slogans.
I also went to the countryside every eight to ten days. I dressed neatly and helped people to awaken house by house. If someone understood, I would help them quit the CCP. When the Chinese New Year festival arrived, I went to the countryside to sell socks and to give out Dafa brochures and Shen Yun DVDs.
I was very busy clarifying the truth to people, but I did not stop attending the Fa study sessions and exercise practice. I only slept for two hours a day. I splashed cold water on my face to wake me up when I felt sleepy. If the steamed buns were brought out of the refrigerator and there wasn’t time to warm them up, I simply ate them and drank a cup of water. That was my meal.
My husband died of cancer and I lived alone for a long time. I knew my life was extended to cultivate Dafa, not for living an everyday life. I will cultivate diligently to fulfill the expectations for being Master’s disciple.