(Minghui.org) I was born in the 1980s, and grew up in a family that was always fighting. I had a stubborn grandfather, an unreasonable grandmother, an alcoholic father, and my sister was the kind of person who would fight to the death.
My family argued over everything, even over a single word, and minor things. They constantly fought with each other, and the family was always in an uproar.
One day when I returned home from school I saw that our house was a battlefield, and I was scared. I later heard that my father had been fighting with my sister. One of them used a kitchen knife and the other a wooden bench as weapons.
Our pots, bowls, cups and dishes were always broken. After they were replaced, the new ones were also broken. My father broke several TVs. My quiet, poor mother worked hard and suffered, and could only weep.
Having this kind of family hurt my heart very much and made me feel confused and hopeless.
One day, my father was about to smash the TV again. I felt so hopeless that I picked up a bottle of pesticide, ran to hide in another room, and was about to drink it. One of my family members found out and took it away from me.
Unhealthy Family Environment
Due to growing up in such a poor family atmosphere I developed a bad temper. I hated life and the world in general. I left home to go to Qingdao to work when I was 16. I felt that I was free and that I could control my life and live the way I wanted to live.
I worked just to make a living at first. I was busy eating, drinking, and playing around. I thought I was cool and fashionable. I formed many bad habits, did whatever I wanted, and lavishly spent money. In order to get some stimulation, I also drank alcohol and gambled. Simply saying that I played around doesn't sufficiently describe my behavior.
Sometimes when I thought about it, I knew I shouldn't be living like that, and I felt regretful. But there was no way for me to change. I was living my life like a drunkard on a binge.
Eliminating Bad Habits and Becoming a Good Person
When I reached marriage age, a classmate introduced me to a man who later became my husband. I learned that his parents cultivated Falun Gong. At that time, I had been deceived by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) propaganda, so I was against Falun Gong. I thought that after I got married, I would change them and prevent them from practicing.
After I got married, in order to maintain my relationship, I changed some of my bad habits, but I could not completely get rid of them. Sometimes when I felt bad, my bad habits returned. My drug addiction also periodically attacked me.
My mother-in-law’s family had just bought a house, so their financial situation was not good. Within a short period of time, I wasted the tens of thousands of yuan that my family had given to me for my marriage. To avoid having my parents find out that my parents-in-law were Falun Gong practitioners, I did not let my parents visit them for an entire year after I got married.
After living with my parents-in-law and getting to know them better, I realized they were not the type of people portrayed by CCP TV and the newspapers. They were kind and hard working people who treated everyone they met with kindness. I felt comfortable living with them.
When I became pregnant, my mother-in-law was still in a poor financial situation. She wore her clothes again and again and was always repairing them. However, she managed to buy good food for me, including expensive sea cucumber. No matter how well they treated me, I still believed the demonized pictures about Falun Gong practitioners that were fabricated by the CCP media. I did not believe what they told me to be the truth about Falun Gong.
At that time influenza was widespread. It was reported that a mother had just delivered a baby and died of influenza. After I delivered my baby, I had a high fever and both of my lungs were infected. I stayed in the hospital but did not improve. I received so many shots that there were no places left to receive any additional injections. I used oxygen to help me breathe but I still nearly died. Looking at my baby, I was scared that I would soon die.
My mother-in-law saw me suffering and was sympathetic. She told me to sincerely recite, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” She said that if I did this, I would be protected. I still shook my head. One day an attractive nurse came by. I later learned she was in her forties. She smiled and told me in a gentle voice, “Sincerely reciting Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good, will help you recover.”
Looking at her, I was so surprised and thought, “Why did she say this? Is what my mother-in-law said really true? Is Falun Gong the Buddha Fa and was it really the CCP smearing Falun Gong? Why did they still practice even after facing so many years of harsh persecution?”
My desire to live was so strong that I took that nurse’s advice. I let go of my bad thoughts about Falun Gong that were planted in my mind by the CCP, and sincerely recited, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!” I kept reciting from the afternoon until evening, when I went to sleep.
A miracle then happened. When I woke up, I felt fine and I could breathe smoothly, and I soon recovered. I was very shocked. I was excited because what my mother-in-law said was true.
But I still wondered, “How can Falun Gong be so miraculous?” I was eager to learn more about the practice and hurried to check out of the hospital. As soon as I returned home, I immediately picked up the book Zhuan Falun and began reading it.
I read one sentence after another. As I read, I realized the profound and vast meaning in this book. It was great! I then felt something rotating in my body. It moved everywhere and the feeling grew stronger. My mother-in-law said, “That was Master installing the Falun in you.” I was very surprised and cried.
My belief in atheism and the bad thoughts about Falun Gong fabricated by the CCP were gone. From that day, I truly started practicing. I behaved as Master requires, following the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, and eliminated my bad habits. I learned the real meaning of life and finally had hope. I had never before felt so solid and happy.
Each time I visited my parents, I told them how great Falun Gong was. My parents saw how I had changed for the better and truly felt happy for me.
I really appreciate Master saving me from hell. In order to save people who are still fooled by the lies, I coordinated with fellow practitioners to clarify the truth, and became a Fa-rectifying Dafa disciple.
Dafa Saved My Family
My marriage was in trouble when my child was two years old—my husband had an affair. My mother-in-law noticed it first. She thought that since I was also a cultivator, she should not keep me in the dark. I discussed this with my parents-in-law. We reminded each other that we should not be affected. We knew we should let go of emotion, look within, and deny the arrangements made by the old forces.
I managed to find some time despite my busy schedule at the fruit shop business, to have dinner with my husband and that girl. I was determined to tell them the truth about Falun Dafa to save them. I clarified the truth and the principle that doing good deeds would receive good rewards and vice versa. I advised them to be good people. But the girl said, “We would like to go to hell together.” My heart was not moved by this, and I kept searching inside for my own faults.
My husband stayed with that girl every day. I used the principles of Falun Dafa to adjust my behavior. One day, wishing to truly save her, I bought some expensive dates and went to visit her. We talked for a long time. She was touched and told my husband, “You have a good wife and your parents are also good.” She decided to leave my husband and convinced him to go back to me. She said she would no longer behave that way. There are not enough words to express my appreciation to Master! All I can do is cultivate diligently and solidly, save more people, and fulfill my vows so Master will worry less.
