(Minghui.org) I am seventy-two years old, and I began to practice Falun Gong in 1993. I have had one tribulation after another on the path of cultivation. I felt that they were caused by my not doing well, and that I had let Master down, which made me very sad.
During the persecution, I was illegally detained by the CCP several times and endured pressure, tribulations and pain. Under those circumstances, I realized that when I did not study the Fa well, the evil took advantage of my loophole. I also realized that no matter what kind of tribulation I was under, as long as I remember that I am a Dafa practitioner and make sure my every thought is based on the Fa, there is no test I cannot pass. As long as I let go of the attachment to life and death, I will make it through every test.
I enlightened that there are two forces persecuting us; one is the CCP openly persecuting us through their police and legal system, and the other is the old forces in other dimensions that we can not see, such as rotten demons and evil forces behind the CCP. When Dafa practitioners held in vicious brainwashing centers, labor camps and prisons, are suffering brutal tortures, if they can let go of the attachment to life and death, the evil guards and CCP thugs will have no way to do anything, and the practitioners will be able to break through the tribulation. If they cannot let go of such attachments, they are not only unable to break through the tribulation, they might deviate from the Fa and Master.
Some fellow practitioners had not been arrested, did not have any pressure, and everything seemed smooth, but suddenly they were hospitalized or passed away. I believe that this also was caused by not letting go of the attachment to life and death.
For example: When I was held in brainwashing center, I suddenly developed frequent urination. I went to the bathroom 48 times within a day. All my sweat pores felt like needles and I was in severe pain for a week. I could not stand, sit or sleep; my neck and back felt as if they were broken; I could not flex or extend my back. I began sending strong righteous thoughts, to eliminate evil and let go of my attachment to life and death. I said to them in my mind: “I cannot see who you are and I do not know what I owe you from the past. I cannot repay you at the moment. But I am a Dafa disciple, my Master arranges everything for me. Do not disturb and interfere with my cultivation and when I consummate I will ask my Master to benevolently resolve my debt. If you insist on persecuting me, I will eliminate you with righteous thoughts. I only follow Master's arrangement. None of you can affect me.”
I handled various tribulations in my cultivation path this way. I never acknowledged the old force's persecution, let go of the attachment to life and death, and broke through the tests one after another.
In December of 2000, I went to Beijing to appeal for Dafa and was held in Xuanwu Detention Center. I was held for ten days, and I began a hunger strike. When it was the seventh day of the hunger strike, the prison doctor said to himself “How come this one does not have any blood pressure or pulse?”
Three days later, when he checked on me, I still had no blood pressure or pulse. He told me: “I want to help you, but you need to cooperate with me.” I asked how. He replied: “I will provide a false record that states you are dying. But if you talk with such energy, you do not look like someone who is dying.” He wanted me to pretend I was dying. He asked me what was my name, where I was from and what was I doing there. I saw an opportunity and asked him to write down: “My name is called cultivate xinxing. I believe in Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance, I come to facilitate Master to rectify the Fa.” He yelled at me: “Get out of here!”
I wondered if I should use the false appearance of illness to get out. When it was the tenth day, the other inmate in my cell said: “You have been on a hunger strike for many days, if you die in my cell, what should I do?” I told him: “Do not be afraid. If you see that I can not move anymore, you can move me out of the cell. It has nothing to do with you.” He immediately called the guard and said: “Hurry up, he is dying.” The guard showed up in five minutes and asked me to get up. It took me a long while to get up, and I asked him what was going on. He said: “Pack up your stuff and you are released.” When I let go of the attachment to life and death, I was released without condition.
Later, when the CCP thugs attempted to arrest me again, I exposed their crime in public with stern words, and their evil ploy did not succeed. I was able to break through the tribulations one after another with righteous thoughts and deeds and with firm belief in Master and the Fa.
