(Minghui.org) I am a doctor, working in a hospital. My wisdom has been broadened by practicing Falun Dafa, and I believe that this is one of the reasons why the effect of my treatments is usually very good. I try always to be responsible to patients and don't accept bribes or gifts. My patients, colleagues and most upper level employees trust me a lot, and often ask me to treat their relatives and friends. However, the director of our department was jealous and often tried to create problems for me.
When I was clarifying the truth to colleagues, that director caused a conflict with the hospital administrator and reported me to the municipal 610 Office in 2004. The police department began to investigate me in secret.
A vice hospital administrator told the police, “She is a very capable doctor and that director is jealous of her. That's why she reported her.” The police department decided to stay out of the matter and let the hospital deal with the issue.
This incident caused me to look within to find my loopholes. I found that I was jealous of the director, looked down on her, held a competitive mentality, was fearful and was remiss in sending righteous thoughts.
Rectifying Myself
I then paid close attention to Fa study and sending forth righteous thoughts, so I could redress my shortcomings. I explained the goodness of Dafa and the evilness of persecution both verbally and in writing, to the hospital administrator, vice administrator and the department director.
The administrator, director and the doctor who fabricated rumors about me were removed from their positions one month later. But, this experience seriously affected me and I became very cautious in discussing Falun Dafa in the workplace.
I sent forth righteous thoughts more and maintained righteous thoughts at all times. Before talking to people about Falun Dafa, I sent righteous thoughts first and asked Master to strengthen me. Gradually, I overcame the mental impact of being persecuted and devoted myself to saving people.
I usually encountered people I wanted to talk to about Falun Dafa by chance. This made me realize that Master, the founder of Falun Dafa, is always with me and he knows everything what is on my mind.
My Enlightenment on "Forbearance Is Not Cowardice"
Many Falun Dafa disciples have been arrested, sentenced and tortured. Even more have been fired and countless families have been broken up. Many people who have heard the lies spread by the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), including family members and colleagues, blame Falun Dafa.
Master said,
“Forbearance (ren) is not cowardice, much less is it resigning oneself to adversity. Dafa disciples’ Forbearance is noble; is the manifestation of beings’ magnificent, indestructible, and diamond-like solidity; is tolerance for the purpose of upholding the truth; and is mercy toward and salvation of beings who still have human nature and righteous thoughts. Forbearance is absolutely not the limitless giving of free rein, which allows those evil beings who no longer have any human nature or righteous thoughts to do evil without limit. With Forbearance, one can give up everything for Truth. But Forbearance does not mean tolerating evil beings—that no longer have human nature or righteous thoughts—defying both human and divine laws as they corrupt sentient beings and Dafa’s existence at different levels, much less is it ignoring terrible crimes.” (“Beyond the Limit of Forbearance” in Essentials for Further Advancement II)
Asking for the Leave with Righteous Thoughts
I was deprived of a regular vacation in 2005. I asked the director if it was due to my performance. She said that the decision was made by the vice administrator, who also denied having made the decision. Then, I talked to the administrator, who denied having made that decision. Therefore, I said, “Since none of you have made that decision, I will take my regular vacation!” Two days after I returned to work, I found that the vacation schedule had returned to its original state.
I asked for half a day's leave to attend an academic conference last year. My director reported to the vice administrator in charge again. I insisted on having the time off while sending righteous thoughts and he finally agreed. But I felt I should clarify the truth to him further.
I went to his home. At first I apologized about being so insistent earlier that day. I talked to him in depth about Falun Gong and persuaded him not to get involved in the persecution. He did ask some questions about the practice. But, he had been aware of the facts about Falun Dafa from his daughter who was in Hong Kong. I persuaded his wife to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations, and gave them a Shen Yun DVD and other materials.
My Compassion Cannot Be Taken Advantage of
My restraint was often taken for a sign of weakness by my family and co-workers. However, within time, my family treated me with greater respect.
I was imprisoned six times for appeal in Beijing. My father-in-law had been poisoned by the CCP and had listened to their slander against Dafa. I talked to him about the practice, but he didn't want to hear it. He read the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and Dafa materials, but was still unwilling to change.
In the past over ten years, he was always sick. He was injured five times, suffered a lot of pain and spent a lot of money without getting better. He reluctantly agreed to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliated organizations. However when I talked about the relative who recovered from a serious sickness within less than 24 hours by reciting “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” he said that he would still take his medicine.
Whenever he felt a little uncomfortable he called me immediately. I am filial to parents-in-law, often buy clothes and food for them and visit them frequently. However, I found they had gotten used to this treatment and badmouthed me in public.
We bought a new apartment in the city, planning to have them live with us to enjoy the rest of their life. We all took turns to have them for the Chinese New Year and it was our turn this year. We had been watching for years the New Tang Dynasty television programs. My father-in-law watched, got angry and said, “All Falun Gong stuff!” He demanded that we installed for him regular Chinese channels.
I realized that he had been taking advantage of my compassion over and over again. Yet, after all this and after reading so many Dafa materials he still interfered with my practice when in my home. I thought, if it went on like this, how could I continue to study the Fa, do the exercises, send forth righteous thoughts and talk to people about the practice well?
I always wanted to be recognized for being a good wife and daughter-in-law, but now, I discussed the matter with my husband. I suggested that all his brothers should take turns in having their parents live with them for two to three months, instead of only a few days during the Chinese New Year. Finally, my husband agreed with my new plan, and no longer wanted to have them live at our home for the rest of their life.
As a Dafa disciple, we have our mission, especially in the ending period of the Fa-rectification. Our biggest task is to save people and let go of the attachment to fame, benefits and sentimentality. In regards to family, we need to be responsible, but not being taken advantage of.
Now, my father-in-law has changed and my husband also often recites “Falun Dafa is good” and helps practitioners from time to time. Now our family life is becoming harmonious.
Master said,
"So long as you, a Dafa disciple, do things righteously, you will transform the environment around you, and you will change people.“As long as you walk straightly your own cultivation path here in the human world, everyone will see you in a positive light."(“Teaching the Fa in San Francisco”, 2005)
