(Minghui.org) I have realized many times from Fa study that we should not place our hopes in everyday people to end the persecution, and we should not be easily swayed or be affected by what happens in society. I thought I didn't have this attachment. I felt pretty good, but I never looked inside in depth.
After the CCP conference at Beidaihe ended recently, two practitioners were talking about a certain CCP leader. They said that it was all over for him since he stuck by the CCP and tried to save the evil party. In his speech he also quoted Jiang Zemin. He appeared to be associated with Jiang. This conversation moved my heart. I thought the situation was getting better and that the evil CCP would soon be finished.
I was not allowed to do my job for 15 years due to the persecution of Falun Gong. I sued my company, but the court and my company fabricated evidence, and the court ruled against me. I wanted to get my job back. It would be meaningless if I got it after the CCP collapsed.
I wanted to send a letter blaming all the parties involved. Writing a letter with that intent, I felt I was bringing trouble to me. I realized that was not the correct thing to do. Wasn't I attached to developments in ordinary society?
This was serious. Some people go out to clarify the truth when the situation is good. If the situation is a little tense, they stay in. Was I the same as they? I have cultivated for so many years, but ended up just like them. I felt ashamed.
Why did I not realize this before? I thought carefully for a moment. I realized that, before, the outside situation did not have much to do with what I was doing. It did not have any bearing on my own vital interests, yet I still had a strong attachment to those interests. I was shocked to realize this. The reason that my heart was moved this time was that my motive for getting my job back was my own self interest. Although on the surface my intent was to save sentient beings and eliminate the evil, my heart was not pure. My main goal was to get my money back, so that I could buy a car. That would make everything so convenient. All these attachments were exposed.
Cultivation is joyful, but also serious. Master said in “Digging Out the Roots”from Essentials For Further Advancement:
“During your cultivation practice, I will use every means to expose all of your attachments and dig them out at their roots.”
Thank you, Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners! This is my personal enlightenment to share with fellow practitioners.
Category: Improving Oneself
