(Minghui.org) I am a new Falun Dafa practitioner and have only been practicing for about a year.
Master has so compassionately taken care of me since the day I began practicing. I have no words to express my gratitude. I have experienced Master's compassion and mighty power.
Out of Control
I am over 50 years old, and people know I am a strong woman. In May 2013, I walked into a clothing store. My heart was heavy with hatred for my family. I told the storeowner about my suffering and pain. I planned to hire a lawyer and legally terminate my relationship with my daughter, leaving her without a penny because she broke my heart. I could not control myself and almost went crazy.
Many years ago, I decided to leave home with my baby daughter. My in-laws were unhappy because I gave birth to a girl. Without any support from my family, I worked hard to give my daughter the best care I could afford. My parents and siblings were not able to help me. I also had to take care of my sick father and my younger sister, who had a terminal illness.
I took them to many major hospitals, but nothing could be done, and they both passed away. I gave up my hard-earned money and business for them, but my mother and other siblings did not appreciate my sacrifice. They secretly divided the possessions that I worked so hard to get.
I hated them. Without me, they could not have afforded a nice place to live.
Wanting nothing to do with them, I raised my daughter alone and worked even harder than before. Many years later, I was able to marry my daughter off to wealth.
After she got married, however, my daughter blamed me and fought with me for giving her a small dowry. When she gave birth, I gave her 10,000 yuan, but she still was not happy and continued to complain about me. She refused to see me for more than a year.
I was alone on a new year's eve, smoking, drinking, and depressed. When I began thinking about my family, I became furious. From time to time, I would visit them and scold them. They were afraid to see me. If they knew I was coming, they would hide, sometimes all night, afraid to go home. They knew they were wrong, and I was heartbroken.
My life was completely out of control. I was very angry and planned to sell my house in the city, buy a house in the remote countryside, and never see my family again.
Something to Try
After hearing my story, the storeowner told me that everything happens for a reason and suggested I learn about Falun Dafa. Other people had told me about the practice before, but I had never been interested until that moment.
I wanted to hear what she had to say, so I waited for her to finish taking care of the other customers. She told me that she practices Falun Dafa, and she clarified the facts about the persecution to me.
I was touched by the three words Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I remembered when the persecution of Falun Dafa began, people were forced to turn in their books. I had a chance to read parts of Zhuan Falun before it happened and first saw the words Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I thought that it would be great if people could live by those three words. Not understanding Falun Dafa back then, I returned the book.
Now the storeowner told me the facts about Falun Dafa and urged me to withdraw from any communist party organizations I may have joined. I immediately agreed, and she gave me Master's lecture tapes. I told her that I would listen to them after I watched TV that night. She asked me if watching TV would solve my current problems. She said listening to Master's lectures could help me.
Wishing to show my respect for Master, I sat up straight on the bed and listened to the lectures. Afterward, I analyzed my behavior. As I listened, I considered whether the way my daughter treated me was due to karmic retribution because I did not want to take care of my own mother and wished to terminate my relationship with my family.
New Sensations
While listening to Master's lectures, I felt something rotating on top of my head. I felt unwell and began to vomit. Puzzled, I picked up the phone to call the practitioner, but I could not reach her. I continued to listen to Master's lectures until midnight, and I listened to them again the next day. I kept vomiting as I listened. I seemed to see a Buddha or Master standing in front of me. I also saw an ancient Taoist wearing a long robe with a hair knot on his head.
I went to the storeowner and asked her what was going on. I wanted to know if it was an illusion. She was very happy and told me that I must have a predestined relationship. Master not only purified my body, but he also opened my Celestial Eye and gave me a Falun.
I thought it was amazing. I had not done anything, but Master already gave me so much. I thanked Master from the bottom of my heart.
I started listening to Master's lectures every day. Whenever I had time, I would visit this practitioner to learn the exercises. I had many amazing experiences when I did the exercises. Falun were revolving all around me. While I did the exercises, I saw many wonderful scenes, including mountains, seas, and beautiful gardens. I wished I could paint these scenes. Friends and neighbors started to compliment me and said I looked much happier and healthier.
Dafa changed me, and my family relationships also improved. I began to think about my granddaughter, who was then over a year old, but whom I had never met. I talked with the fellow practitioner about calling my daughter to see the child. The practitioner told me, “You must be mentally prepared. Calling your daughter out of the blue may frighten her. She may think you are looking for trouble. If you can let bygones be bygones and only tell her that you want to see your granddaughter, then make the call; otherwise, it may not be a good idea.”
Taking the Step Toward Genuine Improvement
I really wanted to see my grandchild. And while listening to Master's lectures, I wanted to change myself. So I summoned up the courage to pick up the phone and called, but no one answered. I tried again, and no one answered again. In the past, if she dared not answer my phone call, I would have immediately taken a taxi to her place to give her a piece of my mind. But I was very calm this time.
I waited a moment, and then called again. I did not blame my daughter, I just told her that I wanted to see the baby and wondered if she would please bring the baby to my place so I could see her. I could sense my daughter was frightened when she talked, but she brought the baby over a few days later.
Somehow, I was still unhappy. But now I had obtained the Fa, so I was determined to change my behavior and consequently refused to fight with my family. I continued studying the Fa, listening to Master's lectures, and improving myself.
My family started to see how I was improving, and I began telling them that my positive changes were a result of practicing Falun Dafa. I told them how I felt after practicing.
My daughter realized my behavior had improved. I stopped blaming her and no longer fought with her grandmother.
I told my daughter how wonderful Dafa is and how great Master is. My son-in-law asked, “Where is your Master? I want to thank him.” In fact, I really wanted to see Master, too.
When my daughter argued with her husband, I could deal with the conflicts calmly without taking my daughter's side. My daughter said that I had changed, and the way that I dealt with problems had changed. I knew she was beginning to admire me. My friends also said that Falun Dafa was very good, and it would be great if everyone could follow Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
Improving in Every Way
For many years I had suffered lower back pain, leg pain and was mentally and physically exhausted. All these disappeared after I practiced Falun Dafa. I was able to quit cigarettes after smoking for decades. Many other small physical changes took place one after another. I thank Master very much for His compassion and for saving me!
One day a person I knew said out loud in front of many people that I practiced Falun Dafa. I did not respond to her, but I was unhappy about her speaking out in front of so many people. I planned to have it out with her the next time.
Another practitioner told me, “It depends on how you look at this situation. Tell her the truth. Maybe she's noticed how you've changed and wants to hear about it.” Sure enough, the next time she saw me, she said that I practiced Falun Dafa. I responded, “Don't you think I'm nice now?” She was shocked.
Smiling, I asked, “Do you think my behavior has improved?” She nodded, and I told her about the wonders of Falun Dafa.
I told her that Master had purified my body. I had quit smoking and I no longer hated my family. I suggested she read the informational materials. She said that she definitely would.
When my friends see how kind I am now, they are usually more interested in knowing about the practice.
I still have a lot of attachments. I must make progress through studying the Fa so that I can improve myself quickly and become a qualified Dafa disciple. I plan to talk about my experiences to my friends and others in order to repay Master and Dafa. Thank you, revered Master!
