(Minghui.org) I started practicing Falun Dafa in 1997. However, after 1999, when I was accepted by a technical college out of town, I became less diligent in practicing Dafa. I seldom read Dafa books nor did the exercises.
I found a pretty good job after graduation and my pursuit for personal fame and gain was very strong. I still believed that Dafa was good, and if anyone bad mouthed Dafa because they were brainwashed and had accepted the lies on TV, I shut them up with a strong fighting mentality. I completely slipped into the mindset of everyday people.
Returning to Dafa
My boss's mother is a practitioner who began practicing Falun Dafa after 2000. Although she obtained the Fa later than me, she was very diligent in cultivation and did the exercises twice a day. She has experienced tremendous and positive physical changes.
Upon hearing that I had also obtained the Fa, she made a special trip to see me. “How fortunate you are to have obtained the Fa at such a young age,” she said to me.
She soon noticed that I was not truly cultivating. One day she sat me down and showed me a DVD. It was a video showing a foreigner running around Tiananmen Square holding up a “Falun Dafa is Good” banner.
He shouted repeatedly in Chinese, “Falun Dafa is good! America knows! Europe knows! The whole world knows! Falun Dafa is good!...” Several Chinese police officers were chasing him. I could no longer hold back tears. I realized where I had gone wrong and felt truly ashamed.
I asked the practitioner that day to give me a truth-clarification DVD, and I took it to an audio-visual publishing house. I asked the staff if the DVD belonged to them. They said no, but would like to take a look at its content. I gave them the DVD and left calmly.
I had a dream that night in which I saw Master for the first time. He looked sublime and magnificent, and I had to raise my eyes to to see him. I vaguely heard him say that the Fa-rectification had started in the human world, and practitioners who had cultivated well had all returned home.
I heard him say that I hadn't done well and couldn't return. Tears filled my eyes. I held Master's hand and begged to be given one more chance. Master looked at me with an expression that I could not describe.
I was heartbroken and woke up. It was only a dream, and I realized that I still had a chance! Tears welled up again. I felt as if I had been given a new life.
Not long after I returned to Dafa, my husband, who is also a practitioner, was illegally arrested.
Thanks to Master's kind arrangement, I met local practitioner Y. I joined their group Fa study and experience sharing sessions. I gradually understood what it meant to cultivate, what it means to be a Fa-rectification Dafa disciple, and assist Master in Fa-rectification.
I tidied up my messy permed hair, dyed it black, and wore a simple ponytail. I began dressing properly instead of wearing outlandish clothes. I also improved my bad temper. I know that all of these changes came from the power of the Fa.
I realized that when I truly cultivated solidly and followed Master's teachings, my seemingly stubborn habits were reduced to nothing.
Nothing Is Too Small in Cultivation
At another practitioner's suggestion, I used my computing skills to begin printing truth-clarification materials at home.
Since I was not familiar with the printer, I often felt helpless when it had problems.
Through sharing with practitioners, brushing up my technical skills, and looking within to improve my xinxing, the printer and I gradually formed a good team.
Once, as I was printing some booklets, a young girl next door delivered some ice cream that I had asked her to get for me. It cost one yuan. She refused to accept my money, saying it was only one yuan and I had bought ice cream for her before. She said not to worry about it.
As soon as she left, however, my printer started acting up. I looked within and tried to see where I had fallen short. I then remembered that I had not paid for the ice cream.
I should have paid for it even though it cost only one yuan. I gave my neighbor the money right away. When I returned, the printer began working properly.
Another time I was printing truth clarification messages on bank notes. One of my messages was not quite straight on the bank note. I thought it didn't matter as long as the message was clear.
As this thought entered my mind, the printer jammed. I immediately apologized for my incorrect thinking. I took out the bank note that was not done properly, and the printer ran smoothly again.
I had more trouble with the printer. It had happened before, so I knew that all I had to do to fix the problem was open the printer case and push a part slightly higher. But I had never done this by myself, so I tried to get someone to help me.
The technically savvy practitioner was busy all week. I was really worried. I didn't know what to do, and wondered why the same problem kept happening again and again.
I suddenly realized that it was me who needed to be fixed, not the printer.
A few days earlier I heard that the evil forces were imposing stricter measures to stop the flow of bank notes with truth-clarification messages. My heart was moved and I became a bit concerned.
In fact, the evil could not do anything to stop us from using this means to clarify the facts to people. It was no accident that I heard about this. I immediately sent strong righteous thoughts to eliminate all of the evil elements in our area that would interfere with our truth-clarification efforts.
I continued doing what I needed to do, and refused to be interfered with. When the practitioner got around to checking my printer, I told him that it was fine. I just needed to fix my own problem.
Through these experiences I realized that nothing was too small, and I must always pay attention to my xinxing cultivation.
Helping a Former Practitioner
I found a new job out of town. At work one day a woman in another office stopped by, and vented her grievance about a friend. She complained that her child suffered facial paralysis and she and her husband were spending more than 3000 yuan on treatment for this every month.
I had heard that her husband was a security guard, so I thought I should clarify the facts to her, as security guards in the area were very hard on practitioners.
But I was concerned because I was new in the company. What if she reported me to my boss? Then I thought, “I'm a Dafa disciple and have a mission to save people. I must not be selfish or worry about my own safety.”
I told her that I was a Dafa practitioner and that she should ask her child to recite, “Falun Dafa is good. Zhen-Shan-Ren is good.” I asked her to tell her husband not to damage truth-clarification materials. I also asked her if she and her husband had quit the CCP organizations.
She said she was busy and would talk to me later. I calmly returned to my office.
She later told me that she had practiced Falun Dafa for two years, and was thinking of cultivating again. I was very happy for her. I almost missed this opportunity to talk with her because of my own selfish concerns.
This woman was very thin, and some of her colleagues advised her to get a checkup. When she started to cultivate again, she gained 11 pounds. Her frequent vomiting due to cervical spondylosis also disappeared, and she stopped drinking and smoking.
As she became more diligent in cultivation and doing the exercises, her complexion became radiant with health and she looked years younger.
I'm very grateful to Master. He has guided and protected me all the way through, and has turned me from a selfish person pursuing fame and gain into a true Dafa disciple assisting Him during the Fa-rectification period.
Thank you, Master!
