(Minghui.org) I joined a Fa study group after the 2013 New Year. We studied the Fa together and sent forth righteous thoughts the entire day. Because my palm was not in an upright position when sending forth righteous thoughts, another practitioner asked to speak to me.
The practitioner appeared angry and asked me a few questions in an unpleasant tone. I do not remember the exact questions, but they were related to finding attachments and whether I believed in Dafa firmly. I was a little upset. After the Fa study, I went to another room to take a nap and somehow felt at a loss.
When I woke up, I heard that practitioner talking about me to other practitioners. That upset me. It was really like the Teacher said, “...if it does not irritate a person psychologically, it does not count or is useless and cannot make him or her improve.” (Zhuan Falun) But then I thought, “No matter how poorly I cultivate, as long as Teacher does not give up on me, I will cultivate to the end.”
A practitioner couple was worried about what I might think and provided some guidance. I told them that I was very grateful to this fellow practitioner. I also shared my understanding, including how to resolve conflicts in my mind and how to look inward to face the issue. They were relieved.
Despite my understanding on the surface, I still felt a little uneasy. At dinner, I felt uncomfortable and intentionally kept a distance from the practitioner who had criticized me.
However, when sending forth righteous thoughts, everyone sat in a circle and I happened to face this person. It was very awkward. But after turning away from the practitioner, I realized that this was a bad thing and faced the practitioner again.
I then felt something move from my head to my stomach and then back and forth in my stomach, making a sound like a chainsaw. I was worried the loud noise would disturb everyone. I looked around and saw that no one had heard it except me.
I knew that, because of my righteous thought, Teacher had removed a bad thing from me and purified my body. As Teacher said:
“Once you upgrade your xinxing, your body will undergo a great change. Upon xinxing improvement, the matter in your body is guaranteed to transform. What kind of changes will take place? You will give up those bad things that you are attached to.” (Zhuan Falun)
From the incident, I truly gained an understanding of what it means to have the right attitude. I greatly appreciate Teacher’s care and eliminated my sense of not cultivating well. I deeply appreciate Teacher’s compassionate salvation and helping me advance firmly on my cultivation path.
Category: Improving Oneself
