(Minghui.org) I have encountered quite a few xinxing tests in this past year and I've realized that I could only get past them after purifying my heart. I understand that as a cultivator, we're closer to our divine sides when we have a pure heart, and things will run smoothly when we can achieve that.

An Impure Heart Is an Obstacle

The xinxing obstacles I had come across this year had a general impact on my ability to tolerate. I did not get immediately angry when encountering tests. Instead, I suppressed my anger, which resulted in ulcers in the mouth, toothaches and a sore throat.

I knew that this was an incorrect state and tried hard to find my hidden attachments. I also interacted with fellow practitioners, hoping that they would point out my shortcomings.

I finally realized that it is difficult for others to see my attachments, as they thought that I was cultivating well since I have many projects to do and little time for rest. But taking on a lot of projects isn't the same thing as cultivation. Only by saving people on the basis on studying the Fa and cultivating well can we be in the diligent state of a Fa-rectification Dafa disciple.

Through looking inward, I found many attachments. I was overly cautious and had a perfectionist attitude. I felt disappointed and depressed when I did not do well in a task or heard practitioners criticizing me behind my back.

I also had a very stubborn attachment of emphasizing my own interests and having demanding requirements for other practitioners. These attachments made me tense and irritable.

I realized that every impure thought is an obstacle in cultivation. I started to study the Fa more to suppress and remove those human attachments and notions. Gradually, I felt more relaxed and things began to go better for me.

Compiling Truth-Clarification Materials with a Pure Heart

I started compiling the weekly and special edition truth-clarification materials for my local area. My initial attitude when compiling the materials was very pure and righteous, as I felt that I was doing the most sacred task.

I gradually lost this sacred feeling, as it became a routine task. When I am not in a good state, there will either be network interference when sending the materials to the Minghui website or my materials wouldn't be published at all. Here are two examples:

Once, a practitioner came over to my house while I was compiling the reports. The practitioner started criticizing another practitioner's shortcomings and I agreed with her.

Later, network interference occurred when I was sending the completed material. When the material was finally sent, it was not published on the Minghui website. Since then, I now pay more attention to my attitude when doing things that save people.

Last year, one of the truth-clarification weeklies for my province stopped publication for a period of time. I decided to contact the Minghui editorial department and take on the role of editing and publishing the weekly myself.

I was initially diligent in compiling the material but slowly became lazy. During my slump, a practitioner compiled two editions of the same materials and both were published on the Minghui website.

This had an impact on me, as I thought, “Is Master telling me not to continue with this task anymore?”

I felt a sense of loss and was depressed.

“Should I continue or let that practitioner do it?”

I thought about this for a very long time. I decided to continue with the task as I felt that I have the capability and time to finish the task.

I realized that I was looking at this problem with human notions and started reciting Master's lecture:

“Do you realize that as long as you’re a cultivator, in any environment or under any circumstances, I will use any troubles or unpleasant things you come across—even if they involve work for Dafa, or no matter how good or sacred you think they are—to eliminate your attachments and expose your demon-nature so that it can be eliminated, for your improvement is what’s most important.” (“Further Understanding” from Essentials for Further Advancement)

When I rectified my understanding and purified my heart, the material was finally sent successfully.

Finding Shortcomings Through Criticism from Other Practitioners

There was a practitioner who often encountered xinxing tests. I suggested that she buy a computer in order to read the experience sharing articles on Minghui, as they may help her. She agreed and I helped her acquire a computer and asked a practitioner to install it.

She came to my house one day, very angry. She said that the technical practitioner was not responsible and did not consider her safety. I tried to restrain myself, so as to not argue with her while she was complaining.

She felt something was amiss shortly after and started apologizing to me. Her quick change in attitude made me unable to listen to her anymore.

I told her, “Go home. We'll talk another day.”

After she left, I reflected on my actions and found that I usually resented and looked down upon this practitioner for not being diligent and not having righteous thoughts. Whenever she came to my house, I would criticize her. Without interactions based upon the Fa, she gradually grew impatient, resulting in an outburst.

Through this, I once again focused on cultivating my xinxing and use a pure heart to handle the things that I encountered in cultivation.

Strong Cooperation as a Whole Body with a Pure Heart

I am enlarging my capacity though solid cultivation. I can now apologize sincerely to practitioners when I am in the wrong.

I could also cooperate well with practitioners. The practitioners that I work with are capable, have strong righteous thoughts and act fast, regardless of their age.

Older practitioners create DVDs, make materials and deliver them while younger practitioners write articles and create multimedia messages. The technical practitioners use their breaks from work to resolve technical issues.

There are some practitioners who send forth righteous thoughts on a long-term basis for the material production sites. Once, they sent forth righteous thoughts for three hours continuously to rescue a practitioner who was on trial.

Practitioners who clarify the truth face-to-face have become more mature and have inspired other practitioners. This leads to more and more people choosing brighter futures for themselves by renouncing their Party memberships.

Whenever there is an activity, coordinators convey the message very quickly to other practitioners, and they would cooperate unconditionally with strong righteous thoughts.

I recalled that during the May 13, 2014 celebration of Falun Dafa day, a practitioner reminded me twice to let go of my attachments, as we were preparing to spend a day out putting up Falun Dafa banners.

However, as there were many banners, I felt stressed that day and told the others who were staying home to send forth righteous thoughts in a relay manner. With everyone's support, everything went very smoothly that day.

Communication and encouragement are key to having a strong, cohesive body.

Our area is maturing gradually. Practitioners who used to have conflicts previously now look inwards. A Fa study group that was previously dissolved has started studying the Fa together and cooperating again.

I hope that my experience sharing can be a source of inspiration.

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Category: Improving Oneself