(Minghui.org) I am a 42-year-old farmer's wife who practices Falun Dafa. Before I started on my cultivation path, I was very attached to fame, profit, and emotions. Yet, when I was very little, I used to ask the heavens in my heart, “Who am I? Why am I here? Where did I come from?”
My mother had disabilities. As the first-born daughter, I struggled from a very young age. I got married and gave birth to a daughter, who had cerebral palsy. My family was in endless sorrow. I looked for a cure for my 10-month-old daughter.
It was very difficult because of the attitude of my husband and his family toward me and our little girl. My husband was rude and grumpy. He often scolded and hit me. He repeatedly said, “Why did you give me a sick daughter? What have you done in the past?” He did not want me to spend money on her, and I felt I had married the wrong person and wanted a divorce.
My long-repressed anguish caused me to come down with many illnesses, including neurological disorders, memory loss, headaches, insomnia, and back pain. My physical condition was getting worse.
After my husband beat me, I went to my mother's home in tears. However, she had started to practice Falun Dafa.
“Human life is filled with suffering,” she said. “Every human is filled with emotions and struggles with hardship. Those that practice cultivation end the cycle of reincarnation and embrace true happiness. You should practice Falun Dafa. Only Master Li can help you step out of this cycle of rebirth and death.”
Once I read Zhuan Falun, I understood that I was paying my karmic debts by enduring hardships and sufferings. I also understood that humans come here to obtain the Fa, and that my wish to come here was for the Fa. In this way, I was so lucky to have started to practice Dafa.
When I listened to Master's lectures for the first time in late fall 2000, I fell asleep, but I could still hear Master's voice. I felt something rotating on top of my head and knew that Master was purifying my body.
My mother taught me the exercises a few days later. After I returned home, I did all the exercises, checked my movements with the book, and found that they were mostly correct. It was unbelievable that I grasped the exercises after just learning them. When I did the sitting meditation, I experienced the optimum state that Master described in Zhuan Falun—I felt wonderful and very comfortable as though I was sitting inside an egg shell.
My body quickly recovered from my syndromes. I felt happy that Master started taking care of me. For the first time in my life, I felt what true happiness was, and I felt Master was beside me at every moment.
My house was old. One night, I was stung by a scorpion, and the pain woke me up. I applied medicine but it did not help. It suddenly occurred to me that I was a practitioner, so how can I ease the pain by using everyday people's methods? Why did I not do the exercises instead? I turned on the music, therefore, and started doing the exercises.
While doing the first exercise, I felt a small Falun spinning in my knee, and my pain eased. By the time I finished doing the second exercise, I was no longer in pain.
Not long after I began to practice Dafa, a circle of red pimples appeared on my face. Two days later, red pimples were all over my face, and I was advised to see a doctor immediately. So I went to the hospital.
On my return home, I took some medication and applied some to my face. At night I woke up and my husband asked me if I was okay. Suddenly I threw up, vomited all the medication, and felt much better. That was when I realized that Master was cleansing my body by expelling bad things, yet I chose to take medication, which pushed them back in.
This spurred me to get up and I threw away all the medication. I thought, “I'm a practitioner, so I will be okay. I will just listen to Master.” My face returned to normal, and my complexion became fair and radiant. People all asked me, “How did your face become so rosy and delicate? What's your secret?” I said, “This is the result of practicing Falun Dafa.”
Master said:
“...young ladies always like to apply facial makeup and want to make their complexion fairer and better. I would say that if you truly follow a cultivation practice of mind and body, you will naturally achieve that goal. It is guaranteed that you will not need to use cosmetics.” (“Lecture Five” in “Zhuan Falun”)
I still remember every miraculous experience I encountered in the beginning of my cultivation. When my movements were not right, a big Falun would spin very strongly and I would feel wind swirling around me. I first did not know what was happening, and I was a little scared and excited at the same time.
When I shared this experience with fellow practitioners, I realized that my movements needed to be corrected. Then, the phenomena disappeared. When I did the sitting meditation, my body leaned backward and then forward, and I felt a Falun rotating, bringing about wind that was trying to lift me up. I cannot describe how I felt at the time.
When sending forth righteous thoughts, I felt a strong energy field around me as soon as I conjoined my hands. When I erected my palm, something large flew out of my body through the top of my head. I was startled, but fellow practitioners told me it was cultivation energy that I sent out to eliminate the evil.
To do the three things well, I bought a motor tricycle as a taxi. This way, I could clarify the facts about Dafa to people, and at the same time make some money. I persuaded people to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations, distributed Dafa truth-clarification materials, and teamed up with fellow practitioners to do Dafa projects.
A mother and daughter hired me. The weather was stormy and gloomy, and we experienced a hail storm. Heavy rain and hail was pounding on my tricycle amid the strong wind.
I talked to the tricycle in my heart. “You've worked hard. Our main purpose is not for money, so please endure a little, and only by cooperating with each other can we do well so that our passengers can witness Dafa's compassion.”
The storm worsened and my passengers were scared. I parked the tricycle by the roadside and began to tell them the facts of the persecution. I advised that they quit the CCP and they agreed to quit. The storm stopped at that point.
I was moved. I thought, “So many Dafa disciples worldwide are fulfilling their sacred vows and saving sentient beings in all kinds of harsh environments. As a particle in Dafa, I am one of them.”
In the countryside where we live, temple fairs are held quite a few times a year because everyone has the heart to pray for Buddha's blessings. It has provided us a good opportunity for truth-clarification.
I do not miss a single temple fair. I normally team up with fellow practitioners to clarify the facts and persuade people to quit the CCP. We typically persuade more than 50 people to quit the CCP each time.
Four years after I bought the tricycle, I helped a practitioner move. At lunch time, I left the tricycle in the ally, but when I came out half-an-hour later, the tricycle was gone.
Three days passed, and then a week. I still could not find it. Without it, I couldn't clarify the facts, distribute truth-clarification materials, or make money.
I couldn't wait any longer and bought a used one. But only a few days later, I was followed and arrested, and sent to a year of forced labor.
There were many practitioners in that labor camp. We encouraged and cooperated with each other to resist the persecution with righteous thoughts. I started to memorize the Fa then. I memorized Hong Yin, Hong Yin Vol. II, Hong Yin Vol. III, Lunyu, and any other Dafa information I could obtain.
Through constant memorization of the Fa, sending forth righteous thoughts, and cleansing my dimensional field, I became able to calm down and look inside to understand this situation better.
First and foremost, even though doing the three things was my main purpose for having the tricycle, I was not always able to prioritize it correctly. When my cultivation state was not righteous and my attachments strong, I wanted to make money more than to clarify the truth.
Second, I had a strong mentality of doing things, which fostered the attachments to reliance and seeking convenience.
Third, I tended to bear resentment toward my family members, which was a barrier for my assimilating to the Fa. I did not realize it was sentiment.
Fourth, I lacked in my Fa-study, and I did not do solid cultivation. I tended to get things done instead of studying the Fa, and tended to go to the coordinator for consultation as soon as problems arose. In such a way, I was actually asking others to cultivate for me, and I consequently admired those fellow practitioners, not the Fa. In the end, I had harmed myself as well as others, causing those practitioners to develop showoff mentalities and self-importance attachments.
The evil made me lose my tricycle because they wanted to sabotage my truth-clarification and persecute me financially. Seeing the approaching danger, Master tried to tell me to look inside through the incident. I did not take the hint but instead bought another tricycle with the intent to make money. With the strong attachment to convenience, I caused myself the loss of an entire year under persecution.
There are no coincidences in cultivation practice. I told Master in my heart, “Master, I was really ignorant. How could I fail to realize it? Now I know where I went wrong.”
I could not return home immediately after my release from the labor camp, because of my family's attitude. I first went to my mother's house to study the Fa and do the exercises. Then I thought about how to break through the obstruction that stopped me from going home to my family. I decided to write a letter and tell them that I would continue with my cultivation no matter what.
I told my husband that the very existence of my life is for cultivation. I did not give in to the evil at the labor camp; therefore, nobody can change me. I was determined to practice Dafa even there!
This firm thought of mine broke through my family's barriers in an instant. My husband and his family said that they would leave me alone and not interfere with me any more. They only said that I must be careful not to be arrested again.
The villagers all thought my husband would divorce me because of my practice of Dafa and the arrest. What's more, he and his family spread a rumor in the village that they would not allow me back in to the house, that he would divorce me, and so on. Thus, the villagers were surprised that my husband and his family had changed, and that I returned home openly and nobly.
Since my return, I have clarified the facts to friends and family to help eliminate their misunderstandings. The CCP in my local area attempted to talk to me several times, but I did not cooperate. Now, they have stopped trying altogether.