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Greetings, Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners!
Under Master's compassionate protection and Dafa's guidance, I have walked my path of Fa rectification for 17 years and am now in my 70s. I would like to report on my cultivation to Master. Please point out anything inappropriate.
In the fall of 1994, I ran into my neighbors, who were on their way to practice Falun Gong. They asked to me to join them, so I tagged along. They were “holding the law wheel,” the second Falun Gong exercise, when we arrived at the practice site.
I joined them and began to do it. When I lifted my arms, it felt like someone was pushing me forward. I moved from my spot and stood away from the group, continuing to follow along with the standing exercises.
I told the couple that I could feel that the practice was powerful and that they should continue. They both had severe illnesses, and I thought they would benefit from it. I did not continue to come to the practice site myself, however.
A few months later in 1995, I saw a group of people meditating and became interested. I sat down and copied them. I felt my body float up during the meditation. When they finished, I asked them what practice it was. It turned out to be Falun Gong. They told me that they were collecting money to purchase the Falun Gong book and asked me if I wanted one. I was not happy when they mentioned money, so I never went back.
A couple of years passed. At around noon on a day in September 1998, I felt sleepy while working at my sewing shop and dozed off in front of it. I saw two huge divine beings in a dream. They took me by the arms and flew me away.
They took me up to a faraway galaxy, and we arrived at a riverbank. I saw that the Earth was far, far away. The river was filled with pieces of glass.
They asked me to cross the glass river without any shoes on. I was afraid that my feet would be hurt, but I had no way of turning back. I looked up and tried to figure out where to go. I saw a big wheel in the sky. It rotated back and forth and looked very interesting. I decided to go there. Right after this thought, I was able to cross the river.
The divine beings disappeared and I was in front of a swamp with no end. I was afraid to die and cried. I had to keep going but I kept sinking. I crawled all the way and had to overcome many difficulties. Finally, I reached the end of swamp.
I rested a bit and then kept going. I saw nine crystal mountains in front of me, glowing with a greenish light. While I was wondering what to do, a fairy tale from childhood popped into my mind. In the story, the husband ran into the nine crystal mountains as he was on his way to meet his wife, a fairy. He did not know how to get over them but did not want to go back. He’d rather die there than fail. He struck the crystal mountain with his head, and this magically opened a door to get through.
I gained confidence and believed that I could do it, too. I began to climb. Once my hand reached up and touched the mountain, a stairway appeared before me. I kept climbing until I was a few meters away from the wheel. The stairs disappeared and I had nowhere to go, up or down. I began to cry again.
Just then, a big divine being showed up and said, "Let me help you." He extended his hand and I stepped onto his palm. He lifted me up and sent me to the big wheel. I felt like it was paradise. I felt really, really happy. Then I woke up.
I believe that a god led me along the road to reach Heaven, and it was for me to choose the path in life, but I did not know what to do.
A former colleague stopped by my shop to have her clothes tailored while I was still puzzling over the dream, and I told her about it. She immediately said, "You are destined to practice Falun Gong. The paradise you went to must have been the Falun paradise." She asked me to go to the practice site with her, but I did not want to. I asked for the books to read instead.
I borrowed 11 Falun Gong books and two books of cultivation stories. I read them through several times within a week, and even cried a few times as I did.
When I saw Master's picture for the first time, I recognized him right away as the large divine being in my dream. I knelt down and sincerely swore to Master that I would follow him all the way, no matter how hard the road was.
After I made up my mind to cultivate, I encountered many tests. My family and colleagues did not want me to do it, but I told them that I knew what I wanted after thinking things through.
I ran into the test of personal gain. When I went to buy Falun Gong books, I bought 10 of them but was charged only for eight. When I realized this, I went back and paid the difference. The bookstore owner gave me Master's picture to show his gratitude.
Another was a test of life and death. When I was doing the meditation one day, I saw in my vision that policemen came to stop me from doing the exercises. I opened my eyes and saw that many practitioners ahead of me were beheaded.
One officer kicked me and told me that it was my turn. I just told him to go ahead. My head was chopped off and my body was still meditating. My main soul came out of my body and flew away. After I finished the meditation, I was happy and felt that I had passed the test. The vision felt very real.
I joined the local practice site on January 1, 1999. I studied the Fa at home. I loved to read the Fa and read a lot. I obtained the Fa later than many others and wanted to make up for lost time.
I experienced Master cleansing my body. It was really comfortable when Master did guanding for me. I felt the warm current going through my whole body. Afterward my body became light and felt like it was being pushed when going up the stairs.
I had a dream: I went aboard a ship with many practitioners. When the ship was full, a black curtain dropped from the sky and covered the ship. The ship became dark and we all kept quiet.
Then we heard a voice: "Set sail." The ship began to move and sway badly. I heard many practitioners falling into the water. After a while, the ship stopped moving. The curtain was lifted and the sun rose. At least two-thirds of the practitioners on board were gone. I cried and woke up.
Soon, the persecution began. Many practitioners were arrested. Out of the over 20 practitioners at our practice site, more than half of them handed in their Falun Gong books to the police. Since I was fairly new to the group, the police did not know about me and did not bother me.
I wanted to do something to help stop the persecution. I talked to a young practitioner and she helped me print some materials. We printed flyers about Falun Gong and I put them up. Later, the young practitioner moved away. I didn't know how to print, so I stopped.
Later, I thought of a way to do more. I bought paint and fabric, and made small banners to hang up. Shortly after that, I got in touch with another practitioner. She supplied me with printed stickers.
I went out and hung up banners and posted stickers. I did encounter trouble sometimes. Once, a young man spotted me and tried to catch me. I had to make a run for it. He chased me for quite a distance.
I found a place to hide and did a quick change. I took off my coat, changed my hair, and put on a pair of glasses. Even though we did make eye contact when I passed by him later, he did not recognize me. He was a plainclothes policeman and carried a police baton in his hand.
I knew that Master protected me. Similar situations happened to me quite a few times, but they all turned out fine. I saw my attachment to competitiveness and tried to do better.
Dafa became my life and I was reborn. I felt that Dafa is so great that I had to recite the Fa. I tried to recite the Fa in 2001, but I wasn't successful after a year of trying.
In 2004, I knelt down and swore to Master that I would recite the Fa no matter how difficult it was. I realized that I had the attachment of pursuit when I tried in 2001. I tried to let go of this attachment and recited the Fa from the beginning to the end each time. After the twelfth time, I had the thought of giving up.
I remembered my vow and decided to keep trying. Gradually, I was able to recite the Fa. When I ran into problems, I was able to use the Fa to guide me and knew what to do. The Fa also gave me wisdom and courage so that I was able to clarify the truth with a clear mind and reacted quickly in difficult situations.
Since 2006, I have worked to transcribe the Fa. I have transcribed Zhuan Falun and other Master's lectures and Hong Yin books once every year. I gained a lot through the process and improved my xinxing.
Once I had a conflict with my husband about my salary. I had not talked to him for two weeks. He wanted to take all my money. I wanted to control my salary to use it for Dafa work. When I tried to recite the Fa during this period of conflict, I was unable to remember anything. I knew I had to search for the reason.
Then I saw the words "improve xinxing" before my eyes, and I knew that I needed to improve. How could I recite the Fa and have conflicts with my husband at the same time? I was not in line with Fa at all. Master said in Zhuan Falun:
"Sometimes, you think that something should be yours, and others also tell you that it is yours. Actually, it is not. You may believe that it is yours, but in the end it is not yours. Through this process, it can be seen whether you can give it up or not. If you cannot let it go, it is an attachment. This method must be used to get rid of your attachment to self-interest. This is the issue.”
I knew that I should not fight with him and maybe I owed him from previous lives. When I tried to recite the Fa again, I remembered every word. When I let go of my attachment, my xinxing improved, my gong grew, and the environment changed as well.
I told my husband that he could keep the money. Then his attitude changed completely. He told me that I could keep my money. We came to the agreement that I would keep some and give him some.
Master said,
"Whenever there is interference of one kind or another in qigong practice, you should look for reasons within yourself and determine what you still have not let go of.” (Zhuan Falun)
I enjoyed clarifying the truth to people. Here are a few examples.
Once I talked to a woman while we were riding our bikes on the same road. Just before I wanted to talk about quitting the CCP, she made a quick turn to go home. I was full of regret that I did not follow her. I blamed myself and swore to Master that I would never again miss any predestined people.
Two weeks later, I ran into her with her family again and talked to her about quitting the CCP. All three people in her family agreed to withdraw from the CCP and its affiliates. I knew that Master had arranged this opportunity for me.
Another time, I met a policewoman. I complimented her on her appearance to initiate the conversation and asked her where she worked. She told me that she worked in a prison. I asked her if her prison detained any Falun Gong practitioners and told her that she should be kind to them if there were any. She changed her attitude right away and said, "You must be a Falun Gong practitioner. I could arrest you here and now."
I told her that I was not afraid of going to prison, but it would be bad for her since she would be committing a bad deed. I told her my nephew's retribution story and how he had to quit his job after he did bad deeds to Falun Gong practitioners. I told her my nephew's name and where he worked. Her attitude changed again. She thanked me and told me that she believed me. I further told her about quitting the CCP and she agreed to do it.
I have met many police officers, both active and retired. Many have agreed to withdraw from the CCP.
Once someone reported me to the officials of our local residential committee to claim some reward money. The committee called my husband and tried to resolve it privately. They asked my husband to pay the informant.
I went to their office when I heard about this. I clearly told the director that I would not sell my life for 500 yuan (the amount of the reward) and asked him to pass the word to the informant to have her talk to me directly. I would give her money if she was in financial difficulty, but not to bribe her into silence. He agreed to pass on my message, but nothing happened.
Every time the committee summoned me, I clarified the truth to them. Once they asked me if I distributed Falun Gong DVDs in my community. I told them that I did not, but I did not deny that I did it elsewhere. I was even happy to give them some since I had them with me. The committee members would not accept the DVDs but did not bother me again.
Out of seven former officials in their office, five quit the CCP. The officials still in office had not done it, so I kept clarifying truth to them. Each time they defamed Falun Gong, I went to see them and told them more about Falun Gong. Now, they no longer defame Falun Gong.
Once when a man saw me distributing Falun Gong materials in the market, he began to scold me. “Why do you have to do this?” he said.
I smiled at him and said, “We are saving people.”
He calmed down. “Don’t you think your family is worried about this?”
I immediately realized that he must be a practitioner's family member. “I am sorry to make you worry about us,” I said to him. He reminded me to be safe.
This encounter really touched me. I knew that in order to protect my family better, I should cultivate better.
Many people understand the truth of Falun Gong now. Once a person grabbed truth clarification materials from me and helped me distribute them. He kept calling out, “Everyone should believe in Falun Gong, not the Communist Party.”
People shouted “Falun Dafa is good. Zhen-Shan-Ren is good” when they saw me. Some wanted to treat me to a meal, others offered to give me a ride, and some helped me escape when I was surrounded by police. These kind people encouraged me to go out every day to save more people.
Once I took many materials to distribute in a suburban area about an hour’s drive from my home. When I finished and returned home, I noticed that only 45 minutes had gone by. I double checked the time again—it was correct. I remembered that I did feel like I was walking really fast, as fast as a car. I probably walked in another dimension.
Another time, my husband prevented me from going to Beijing to appeal for Falun Gong after he saw that I had purchased train tickets. He pushed me into a room and locked me in. I did not know where my strength came from. I just pushed the door hard and it opened. My husband said to me, “I will report you to the police.”
I made it on time to board the train, but I didn't know if I did wrong since I was not tolerant of my husband. I just knew that I had to go to Beijing. I asked Master in my heart, “Master, did I do wrong? I have to go to Beijing. If I did, Master, please forgive me.”
A water bottle was handed to me. I turned around to see who did it and saw Master walking away from me and disappear. I cried out, “I did not do wrong.”
One winter was bitterly cold. On a windy evening, I went out to deliver truth-clarification materials. While passing by an eight-story building, a large wooden board suddenly blew off the rooftop directly toward my head. Just as it would have hit me, a force suddenly pulled me and my bike to the other side of the road. I turned around and there was nobody there. I knew that Master saved my life.
Once I left home without breakfast. I distributed materials until 2:00 in the afternoon and began to feel hungry and dizzy. Then I saw a big peach in front of me. I grabbed it and took a bite. It was really sweet. I closed my eyes to enjoy the taste. When I opened my eyes to have another bite, the peach was gone. I felt a warm current coming down from my head coursing through my body. My hunger was gone and I was no longer tired.
These are my true cultivation experiences. I will walk my path well and return home with Master.