(Minghui.org) Greetings, revered Master! Greetings, fellow practitioners! I would like to share my cultivation experiences writing broadcast scripts over the past year.
I am a young practitioner who obtained the Fa in 2005. I joined the NTD TV project and was trained well. Due to restructuring changes in 2013, I left NTD and joined the RTC truth clarification effort to save people in China. I felt the wonderfulness of saving sentient beings while making truth clarification phone calls. However, I regretted that I did not have an opportunity to use the expertise I’d learned at NTD.
In March of last year, one of the RTC coordinators approached me to write broadcast scripts. I gladly agreed. I finally had the opportunity to use what I’d learned at NTD. I knew Master saw my aspiration and granted me this opportunity to save sentient beings!
At the beginning, there were four of us: the editor; someone to do resource allocation and to organize the stories; and another practitioner and I to write the scripts. Over time, we were able to clarify the truth from different angles. We also coordinated with other groups and overcame technical challenges to great effect.
I’m Taiwanese. I did not fully understand the logic of people from China. Every time I wrote a script, I had to spend a lot of time reading news reports and gathering materials. Then I studied further and tried my best to come up with words that would get people’s attention. With Master’s benevolent strengthening, I was able to write scripts that helped suppress the evil and stop crimes from being committed against Dafa.
Writing truth clarification scripts is also a process of cultivation. A new practitioner joined the team and wrote a vivid script that really stimulated the listeners’ thinking and interests. The coordinator praised him and promoted his scripts. I felt discouraged, because I felt like my writing was lacking creativity. I tried to write like he did but was unsuccessful. I felt frustrated and even thought of leaving the team.
I searched within and saw my attachment to jealousy and the attachment to fame. When I first joined the writing group, I was inspired and was able to write quickly and effectively. All I was thinking about at that time was to save more people and assist Master in Fa-rectification. But now I started to care about myself. I wanted to write good articles so that I could get compliments. When I pursued fame, Master would not inspire me. I realized that I needed to rectify my heart first.
People have different tastes. It’s a good thing that we have different styles in our group. I should be happy instead of being jealous of him. This path is arranged by Master. Master believes in me. I should, too!
I quit my job in June of this year to start preparing for the exam for public office in order to get a more stable job. But that took up a lot of my time and energy. At the same time, due to the loss of income, I started to worry about money.
Just then, my group took on a new assignment to write short messages. We had to come up with a huge volume of messages. Our second-in-command asked for my assistance multiple times, and sometimes she would change assignments as the project evolved and grew. I was under intense pressure and eventually started to complain about her.
When I openly criticized her in a meeting, she listened in silence. The other two practitioners, however, recognized her efforts and said that we should cooperate and ask for Master’s strengthening to help us overcome the hurdle. I felt ashamed that I worried more about my own exam, rather than devoting my time and effort entirely to saving sentient beings like my fellow practitioners.
When our second-in-command delivered a great report in another meeting, I recognized that it was my attachment to jealousy that made me unwilling to praise her.
Master says, “But normally when a problem arises, if it does not irritate a person psychologically, it does not count or is useless and cannot make him or her improve.” (Zhuan Falun)
When others do well, if one can truly praise them, it is the first step toward eliminating the attachment to jealousy. I tried my best to suppress the bad thoughts and said, “What a great report! I really got a lot out of it!”
After I recognized my attachment, I dug deeper. Due to my jealousy, I had only been looking at practitioners’ shortcomings and picking on them, which only served to stress them out. If I continued to do this, I would be sabotaging Dafa projects.
Master says:
“Currently there are still some students who fall terribly short in terms of cooperating together. And not just short—it even goes so far as to sabotage one another. I will tell you, regardless of what your thinking is, anytime you serve to sabotage a Dafa disciple’s project or something that Dafa disciples should do, you are acting as a demon. It doesn’t matter that you may be thinking, “I’m a Dafa disciple, and I have done a lot.” The old forces are nevertheless writing entries into your ledger, one by one.” (“What is a Dafa Disciple” in Teaching the Fa at the Conference XI)
I was horrified by the mistake I’d made. I told myself that I had to break through this. The separation between us would make saving sentient beings harder. I told myself to cooperate with the second-in-command.
I sent her a text message inquiring about the status of the project and told her that I would like to study the Fa with her. I tried my best to rectify myself in the Fa. At that moment, I felt that some substances in my heart were eliminated.
Afterwards, when I studied the Fa with the group, I noticed how pure and pleasing that practitioner’s voice was. I felt very much at peace. I truly did not need to be jealous of anyone. I felt the strong energy field of my Fa-study group. From this incident, I realized the importance of eliminating jealousy and cooperating as one body.
I’m thankful for Master’s benevolent salvation. I’m thankful for my fellow practitioners’ tolerance of my mistakes and shortcomings. I need to keep reminding myself to fulfill our noble, great mission of saving sentient beings and not to get lost in the human world.
This is my personal understanding. Please point out anything inappropriate.