(Minghui.org) I began to practice Falun Dafa in 1996. However, for more than 10 years, I was not diligent and did poorly. Especially during college, I was lost in lust and repeatedly made mistakes. In dreams I saw myself dropping down towards a deep abyss. I was in despair, but still could not control myself.
Master did not give up on me. When reading “Fa Teaching at the 2013 Western U.S. Fa Conference”, I was deeply touched and decided to do better. In the following months, every day I could feel that Master was purifying my body and helping to clean out the degenerated substances in me.
I do not know how much Master suffered for me to come back, or how many efforts Master has put forth for me to walk well on the cultivation path. The gratitude towards Master is beyond words. I would like to share my experiences these last three years and hope all of us will do well on our remaining path.
Back on Track
In these three years after coming back to cultivation practice, I felt Master was looking after me and always guiding me. When there were major issues I needed to resolve, Master always gave me many hints. For example, when I was attached to comfort, I had a dream that the only way to go back home was through a snowy mountain; when I did not join filing criminal complaints against Jiang Zemin for persecuting Falun Dafa, I had a dream of one exam in which I left a major question blank; when I almost fell again because of lust, I had a dream of risking my life by swinging on a mountain by a cliff.
Master also helped me tell others about Falun Dafa. This includes buying a printer to prepare truth-clarification materials or writing letters to classmates that I do not see often. I felt Master has made many arrangements and we just need to follow the Fa. It was like what Master said in Zhuan Falun, “According to physics, the motion of matter follows certain laws—the same is true with the motion of the universe.” “Take a human being as an example. The Tao School considers the human body a small universe.”
One example is the environment for Fa study. From high school to obtaining a master’s degree, I spent nine years in the dorm on campus which made it difficult to study the Fa or do the exercises. I always hoped this would change once I began to work. Then my employer did not require me to work overtime and in the two-bedroom apartment I shared with a coworker, he only lived there three days a week. That allowed me to study the Fa, do the exercises, and send forth righteous thoughts in a stable environment.
This way, many of my attachments were eliminated even before I realized it. One day in a dream, I saw an existence of my own image with an ugly looking person yelling for water, as none of the containers had water in it. Realizing I had not played video games for a long time and this was the manifestation of my attachments, I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate it.
Since then I became more clearheaded and my mind also became more open.
Saving People
Although I know the importance of telling people the facts about Falun Dafa to debunk the communist's hate propaganda and awaken them, I did poorly when I was in school. From 2005 until I began to work in July 2014, only three high school classmates agreed to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) regime because of me.
Because clarifying the truth is one of the three things we need to do, I decided to do better. I started with my roommate and spent one noon time explaining that the Party had done many bad things to harm people, and that renouncing membership of the regime is important and beneficial. In the end, he agreed and I became more confident.
Telling the Facts to Coworkers
I began to tell more people about Falun Dafa and how severe the persecution has been. Some of them did not listen to me and even laughed at me. At first I had negative feelings, but when thinking further I realized that this happened because I had human notions and my righteous thoughts were not strong enough.
One time a coworker said something rude to me in front of several other people. I was very angry, but did not say anything. After a few days, I invited him to take a walk. In about half an hour, I told him the details about Falun Dafa. He listened attentively and also agreed to quit the CCP.
When thinking back, I was glad that I did not fight back when he insulted me; otherwise, I may have lost the opportunity of saving him.
Last November my employer asked me to work in another city due to a business need. I accepted it without thinking. I knew Master's arrangements would be the best and I would always meet people I needed to save wherever I went.
After arriving there I rented an apartment and went to buy some bedding. I told the store owner the facts of Falun Dafa and did the same to the taxi driver on the way back to the apartment. Both of them agreed to quit the CCP. But because of my zealotry, neither of the next two people I talked to listened to me and one of them even swore at me.
That night I felt unable to move during sleep with a humming sound around me. I asked Master to help me and was able to move in several seconds. Situations like this never happened to me before and I immediately sat up to send forth righteous thoughts. I knew some bad elements may have wanted to harm me when seeing a Dafa disciple coming to this place to save people. But I knew Master would help me and there was nothing to be afraid of.
Taxi Drivers
Because of traveling between the two cities on a regular basis, I had taken taxis almost 200 times in the past few months. I always told them about Falun Dafa. Interestingly, most of them had not heard about these facts previously and I knew Master had made arrangements for me to help save them.
There was one taxi driver that I met three times. The first time, he did not listen to me or accept materials. The second time, I decided to take a different approach. Noticing he did not like the communist party and not knowing how to improve the situation, I talked with him about the divine culture in the past and the glorious history in China. He accepted it and also took the materials I gave to him.
When meeting him for the third time, I saw he had just had a haircut and I happily greeted him. He did not remember me at first and when I asked, he said he had not had time to read the materials in detail. Nonetheless I continued talking about why one should quit the Party for a better future. In the end, he nodded and said to me, “I will quit [the communist organizations]!”
With those words, his entire person was filled with excitement and energy, as if he was a different person. I was happy because he had made a good choice for himself and his future.
In Zhuan Falun, Master said, “I think that those who can listen to my lectures in person, I would say, honestly... you will realize in the future that this period of time is extremely precious.” Let us walk out of depression and regret, and really do our best on the remaining path. Master has been helping us and is waiting for us.
