(Minghui.org) I am an accounting manager in a telecommunications company. I started practicing Falun Dafa in 2012. My life has undergone a fundamental change since then.
Miserable Life
Before I started on the cultivation path, I was rather vain and liked to dress fashionably. Throughout the years, I became cynical. I did not know the meaning of life and was unsure of what I wanted out of life.
I thought I was deserving of a rich, handsome husband. Given my physical appearance, I should have met someone, but no one fit my criteria. I was almost desperate when I met the man I was going to marry. He was neither handsome nor rich, but had a job.
After marrying him, our lowly lifestyle and his pettiness turned into resentment toward him. Then, I discovered he was having an affair! I could not bear the humiliation and was full of jealousy. I lost my faith in him and the marriage, hated him and we fought every day.
One day during a fight, he said, “Look at your eyes, they are so poisonous.” It was true because I was living in darkness and hated everyone around me.
My health was poor and I was of low spirits. There was nothing that interested me and I suffered from migraines, gynecological diseases, and allergic rhinitis. Everything was gray and nothing made sense.
Walking Out of Darkness
A relative gave me a copy of Zhuan Falun, the main book of Falun Dafa. I read it from cover to cover in 24 hours and the more I read, the happier and more energetic I became.
My mind was filled with the thought, “I didn't know there were such wonderful things in this world. Why did it take me so long to find it.” I wanted to tell everyone: “Do not believe the Communist Party's lies! Look for the truth!”
For the first time in my life I have truly understood the meaning of life, the predestined relationships between husband and wife, the reason for being rich or poor, as well as the relationship between loss and gain. The book Zhuan Falun has lit up my path of life.
Compassion Resolved Conflicts
I have changed. I no longer dye my hair yellow and changed my hairstyle to a braid. I changed my clothing style from fashionable to simple and elegant. I stopped being vain, and became gentle, low-key, humble and approachable.
For the first time in my life, I started to look at my own shortcomings and others' virtues. Upon doing this I suddenly realized that my husband had a lot of merits. For example, he made good food and was efficient in general. I stopped bearing resentment toward him and started to understand his pains.
He likes to drink and sometimes drinks too much. I used to be extremely anxious and refused to care for him, which made our relationship very toxic. Now, with my xinxing having improved through cultivation, I listen to what he has to say. I am able to stay calm and not develop any negative thoughts.
He cursed at first, then he started telling me about his difficulties and sufferings and I just listened. When he finished, I spoke a few words without any resentment or contempt, and to my surprise, he shed tears. I have indeed witnessed the power of compassion. It was compassion that resolved our conflicts and it was compassion that has disintegrated his resentment towards me.
After conflicts with my husband, I looked inside, improved, and my surroundings have gradually undergone dramatic changes.
He now chats with me without it turning into a conflict. He became considerate, would pick up our son from school and cook dinner when I was busy at work. Though we still have conflicts and I have a lot to improve, these positive changes are fundamental to my cultivation.
Falun Dafa Grants Benefits
I studied the Fa and practiced everyday while pregnant with my son. He was very healthy at birth and his earlobes were very big (in Chinese it indicates great inborn quality). I realized that the child might have come for the Fa. He is eight years old now, is very smart and learns everything very fast. He was able to read Hong Yin at the age of three, and now studies Zhuan Falun with me.
He has benefited greatly from Dafa. He did well in school and was rarely sick. He developed a high fever one day and the teacher called me to take him home. I picked him up and sent forth righteous thoughts next to him. I also recited “Falun Dafa is Good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance are Good!” nonstop. Without taking a single pill his fever broke the next morning. He was very little and not a practitioner yet, but he has benefited from Dafa because I am a practitioner.
The Chinese Communist Party (CCP) spread rumors to slander Falun Dafa. It claimed that Falun Dafa forbids people from taking medicine and caused a lot of deaths. The truth is that people have become healthy through cultivation, and they do not need to take medicine.
I have not taken a single pill since I began to practice Dafa. This is because I have let go of many bad notions and improved my morality. Mishaps and illnesses are indeed incurred by people committing bad deeds.
Improvement in Words and Deeds
Prior to cultivation practice, I did not put that much effort into my work and refused to learn new things. I tended to complain a lot and shy away from difficulties. After practicing cultivation, I lived by the Falun Dafa principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
Every morning, I arrived at the office early, mopped the floor, and got the hot water ready before everyone else arrived. Instead of making excuses, I took on the more difficult tasks and left the easy and advantageous ones for others. I did good quality work and maintained a good mentality while dealing with troublesome and picky customers.
My coworkers praised me because I have become gentle and considerate. I do not compete with others for personal gain and even my managers praised me for having become competent and efficient.
As I follow the Dafa principles I improved in word and deed and elevated my morality. Dafa is instrumental for my becoming more and more rational, clear-minded and efficient.
In the past, I was an average worker, but because of cultivation, I can finish my assignments fast and well.
Practitioners' Incredible Path
The company organized a competition. The contestant from our branch, our vice president, changed his mind for some reason. The manager asked me to participate in his turn. Although I was not in favor of participating, and the competition factors were outside my competence, I agreed to take part in this. I was afraid that the manager might get into trouble for not having someone in my area participate.
I studied the competition rules and was puzzled. I was unfamiliar with any of the subjects, from negotiation to implementation, and technical details to the installation process. It was difficult to answer questions from the experts. This was a first for me and I had no clue where to start.
The competition would take place in the provincial capital and I would be representing our branch, which was a big deal. The clock was ticking. I felt powerless and greatly pressured.
Then, I realized that I had an attachment. I was afraid I could not win any title from the competition. That was an attachment to reputation and personal interest, and I knew I had to let go of it.
Upon having this thought, I realized that the score was not important, as long as I met the standards of a practitioner and completed what I was assigned to do. Then, the competition would be a success.
I spent the day reading the competition rules and preparing for it, and was informed at night that the competition was taking place on the very next day.
From the beginning of the competition to the end, I reminded myself to let go of personal interest and the fear of losing face. I am a practitioner, even though my preparation was not perfect, as long as I met the standards of the Fa it would be fine.
I failed to answer two questions. I told the judges that I had just taken over the assignment and that I did not know much about the subject or techniques. The judges then stopped asking me challenging questions and let me proceed.
Because I was not attached to reputation, personal interest, or personal performance, I felt very relaxed and was able to compete with little preparation and knowledge about the subject matter, something impossible for everyday people.
Every Falun Dafa practitioner has an incredible path. I am but a tiny particle in Dafa. Falun Dafa has made a new person out of me!
