(Minghui.org) I was filled with hate and anger from a young age. My parents didn’t like me, and my mother-in-law picked on me. I held deep hatred towards them all and wondered why I was treated so unfairly.
Living a joyless life also wrecked my health. Above all, for several straight years after my grandmother passed away, I had recurring nightmares in which she tried to have me go with her “to the other side.”
I dreaded falling asleep at night. Eventually, when I was 32 I went to a fortune teller. She predicted that I’d live—at most—four more years. She pitied me so much that she declined to charge me for her service.
Months later, I had a better dream in which a divine being told me that only by continuously cultivating could I prolong my life.
A relative of mine gave me a book called Zhuan Falun two years later. I opened the book and saw the picture of Master Li Hongzhi, founder of Falun Gong (also called Falun Dafa) and author of Zhuan Falun. I recognized that Master was the divine being in my dream and I knew that I had hope in life.
I have practiced Falun Dafa for 19 years. Not only am I still well and alive, but I’ve also repaired my relationships with my parents and mother-in-law. When the police came to arrest me for refusing to renounce Falun Dafa, my mother-in-law did her best to stop me from being taken away.
I give my story as a tribute to Falun Dafa and I hope that people will come to see that the practice is nothing like what the Chinese communist regime has depicted in its propaganda.
I was quiet as a child and the oldest of four siblings in my family. My parents disliked me; they often beat and scolded me. I held great hatred towards them so I married when I was 21 and left home. My heart was broken.
My life didn't change for the better. My mother-in-law had seven sons and one daughter. She was very demanding and often bullied me. Although I was introverted and said little, I developed hatred and complaints towards her in my heart.
What's more, I was tired with so much work at home and at work. I suffered from many infirmities—migraines, stomachaches, enteritis, adnexitis, and knee problems. When I was in serious pain, I had thoughts of committing suicide.
My grandma loved me and took good care of me when I was very young, but she passed away in 1990 when I was 26. After that, I often dreamed of her chasing me and asking me to accompany her. As she chased me, I ran away and was often scared to wake up from the dream. I dared not sleep at night during that period of time because I had the same dream again and again. I held the light switch rope when I went to sleep. Sometimes I dared not sleep at all the whole night.
Desperate, I went to a fortune teller, an older woman. She observed my hands, face, and neck, then sighed, “You are so pitiful! I do not need payment. Your lifespan is not long. If you live to be 36, then come to pay me.”
It was the summer of 1996 when I was 32 years old.
One night I had another dream. My husband and I climbed a ladder to the heavens. I constantly kowtowed to whomever I met and asked if they could help me extend my life. Divine beings at one realm of heaven told me they couldn't manage my problem and asked me to go higher for help.
I climbed up and up until I arrived at the layer of heaven where I saw a divine being there holding a big notebook. He told me that the first name on the list was mine. He said my life had come to an end. I kowtowed while crying and pleaded with him, “Can you please extend my life three more years? My child is too young to live without me.”
As I kept on kowtowing to him, he said, “I don’t have the final word.” He brought me to a great divine being who did not speak.
The great divine being motioned for me to sit down in the lotus position. Then he taught me to practice meditation. He told me that I could extend my life only if I practiced diligently. At that moment I awoke. I did not understand the meaning of my dream.
When my second daughter was born in March 1998, my health worsened: itchy knees, anorectal diseases, toothache, backache, stomachache, and a more serious adnexitis. My husband took me to major hospitals for medical treatment.
I tried Western medicine, traditional Chinese medicine, and special prescriptions but nothing could help me. For me, it did not matter if I lived or died.
One of my sister-in-law's relatives visited her to introduce her to Falun Gong. My sister-in-law felt very good about the practice and came to persuade me. “Falun Gong is very effective for healing and fitness,” she said. “You have so many diseases. Just hurry up and learn it.”
I responded to her negatively. “I do not believe it. Even hospitals cannot cure my diseases. How can I recover my health by just reading a book?”
She didn't give up on me. We took her three-wheel bicycle to attend a Fa study group at a Falun Gong practitioner's home. Four practitioners were reading Zhuan Falun when we arrived. I sat on a kang (a heatable brick bed used in northern China). My head dropped to one side. I sat there for almost two hours while they read the book, but I didn't take in any words at all.
Several days later, my sister-in-law wanted to take me to a practitioner's home to watch Master's Fa lecture videos. I had back pain and was afraid there would be nothing to lean against, so I was not willing to go with her at first. Finally, my daughter and I agreed to go with her.
The practitioner's home was filled with people. There was no place for me to lean against. I sat down, leaned against my daughter and watched Master's Fa lectures. This time I listened to Master's teachings carefully and really took in what Master said.
Two hours later, my sister-in-law asked me, “Are you still feeling pain in your back?”
I patted my back and said, “What? I have no pain. Falun Gong is really effective!”
My back would be in pain even when I leaned against a wall at home. This time, as I sat there with my arm on my daughter for more than two hours, I felt no pain at all. I was amazed that Falun Dafa was so miraculous. From that day on I have walked the path of cultivation in Falun Dafa.
Three days later, I went to a Fa study group at a veteran practitioner's home. I felt that all of them seemed so familiar to me. A practitioner held a copy of Zhuan Falun with two hands and handed it to me.
I accepted the book, opened it and saw Master's photo. I felt that Master looked so familiar. After a second thought, I was shocked because I was pretty sure he was exactly the great divine being I had met in my dream. A practitioner reminded me to address him as “Master” instead of a great divine being.
As I studied the Fa, cultivated my heart and shared cultivation experiences with practitioners, I gradually no longer hated or complained about my mother-in-law. When she was ill, I took care of her and told her to say sincerely “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.”
My mother-in-law shared this with everyone she met. “Falun Gong is great,” she said. “My daughter-in-law was so nice to me after she practiced Falun Gong. If everyone learns Falun Gong, elderly people will enjoy blessings.”
Her throat was irritated before and she often coughed, but she recovered completely later on.
One day in 2003, as I was doing housework at home with the gate open, I overheard someone mentioning my name outside. However, before I was able to close the gate, nine policemen rushed into our home, surrounded me and pulled me into their van.
My mother-in-law shouted, “What are you doing here? You are like bandits!”
She tried to stop them from taking me away but was pushed to the ground. She lost consciousness immediately. I shouted, “Falun Dafa is good!”
At this point, my husband came home. He stood in front the van and tried to stop it. More and more bystanders appeared. One said, “Why arrest her? She is doing housework at home. The old lady has lost consciousness. Her eight children wouldn't forgive you. Just release her daughter-in-law.”
This frightened the police and they released me when they saw that my mother-in-law had still not regained consciousness. They finally drove away.
We sent my mother-in-law to the hospital emergency unit. Doctors took great effort to rescue her and eventually brought her back to life. Village officials came to our home every day and tried to force me to join the local brainwashing center. My mother-in-law asked me to hide and delivered food to me in person.
I cooperated with fellow practitioners in telling people the facts about Falun Gong. I drove a motorcycle to put up truth-clarification notices everywhere. We distributed pamphlets, DVDs, and software to break through internet blockade. We persuaded people to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
In 2017, another practitioner and I met a well-dressed and official-looking man at a bus stop. I went over to him, but I turned back in hesitation. Then I had a second thought: no matter what his profession might be, he came to this world to be saved. I made a U-turn and went back to him.
The fellow practitioner and I took turns sending forth righteous thoughts and explaining to the man the facts about Falun Gong. He told us that he worked in a geographic field and had heard about Falun Gong.
He was aware of the movement of quitting the CCP to secure one's safety, but he didn't know how to quit. He asked us to use his true name to quit the CCP. He accepted our truth-clarification materials and software for breaking through the internet blockage. He said he would share them with his co-workers and reminded us to be alert and keep safe.
I worked at a factory that manufactured undergarments for the international market. We often have extra cloth, thread, elastic belts, bras and underwear in the factory. Almost all of the workers take products home from time to time. The goods are all of superior quality and imported from overseas. I also took some home for a period of time.
During that period, Master's Fa teachings were often imprinted into my mind. Master said,
“One practitioner works in a textile factory in X city of Shandong Province. After studying Falun Dafa, he taught other coworkers to practice. As a result, the factory has taken on a new look. He used to take home pieces of towels from the textile factory, and so did the rest of the employees. After practicing Dafa, instead of taking things home he brought back to the factory what he took home before. When others saw his actions, nobody would take things home anymore. Some employees also returned to the factory what they previously took home. This situation occurred throughout the entire factory.” (from Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
I was aware of my mistake and selfishness and brought back all the things I took.
Our quality inspector who already understood the truth of Falun Dafa knew that I didn't take anything home. She thought it was unfair to me, so one day in the spring of this year, she gave me some elastic belts. I refused to take them and told her, “I do not want them. My Master has given me so much, I would not bring shame on Dafa. I want to follow my Master's teachings.”
No matter how hard she pushed me to accept the belts, I just refused to take them.
A month ago, our team leader gave me an excellent-quality bra, in consideration of my excellent work and help to her. I refused and said, “I’m really sorry. I know you're trying to be nice to me, but I just really couldn't accept it.”
She couldn't understand my behavior. I told her, “I have a strong spiritual belief. I practice Falun Gong.”
She then asked me many questions. I answered her questions one by one, from the CCP's staged self-immolation hoax at Tian'anmen Square to Falun Dafa's principles that teach people to be good. I also told her that Falun Dafa had spread to more than 100 countries and regions around the world.
At my workplace and at all times, I never forget the mission of a Dafa practitioner and the image of a Dafa practitioner. I regard any moment that I spend with co-workers as a good opportunity for saving people.
I've been working there less than three years. During this period of time, more than 30 workers out of 100 in this factory now know the facts about Falun Gong. All the workers and management officials truly admire the superior behavior of Falun Gong practitioners.