(Minghui.org) Recently, I have felt that I didn't have enough energy. I had enough time to read the Fa. However, while I knew that I must read the Fa, and the book was lying on the table, I just did not want to pick it up. It felt that I was being suppressed by something—although I wanted to read the book, I didn't want to fetch it, and then I would regret that I had wasted time.
Although I knew I was wasting time, I just had no energy to pick up the book or do the exercises; I would rather sit there doing nothing.
I knew this was not my true self, but I was restrained in that state for a long time. I didn't even have enough energy to send forth righteous thoughts.
At the beginning, I thought it was the interference from low-level beings controlled by the old forces. One day, I wanted to read the Fa but didn't want to get up and pick up the book. I was frustrated and said to the low-level beings in my mind: “Why do you do this to me? You try so hard to undermine the Fa, but the old forces will not treat you as divine beings. Your level is even lower than human. In the end, you are nothing and will gain nothing.”
Then, I heard something: “Right. We are nothing but your own karma. Our goal is to destroy you.” I was shocked.
I recalled Master's teaching in “Fa Teaching at the 2015 West Coast Fa Conference”:
“The old forces wouldn’t venture to directly persecute Dafa disciples at present—none of the larger beings that assume a form would venture to do that. Then what sorts of things are doing that now? Things like worms, bugs, bacteria, and all kinds of foul things like that. Sending righteous thoughts is extremely effective in these cases! They are annihilated in large batches. But there are a lot of them, given how big this cosmos is; and the cosmos consists of many layers. So after you have wiped these things out, shortly after, before long, they might infiltrate again, and you need to eliminate them again. So you need to keep sending righteous thoughts like this, and persist with it for some time, before you will see obvious results. Don’t lose confidence just because, after feeling good following a while of sending righteous thoughts, things don’t seem to go well again. I can tell you that they are using this approach to wear you down—to whittle away at your strong sense of conviction. So you need to be alert to these things.”
So, I would like to remind fellow practitioners to be aware of such a state. No matter what kind of interference it was–worms, bugs, or bacteria–it originates from our own loopholes in cultivation, and the old forces take advantage of such loopholes.
My own experiences tell me that sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil in my own dimension is very effective. Every time, when I build up energy to send forth righteous thoughts, the “slacking off” feeling is driven away.
Slacking off and lack of energy are illusions. At the surface level, they appear hard to eliminate, but actually, they are just like dust—if one has strong will, they are easy to eliminate.
Fellow practitioners, please do not get trapped in such a state or slow down your cultivation. Strive forward diligently, not only for ourselves, but also for all sentient beings.
Category: Improving Oneself
