(Minghui.org) When cultivators run into tribulations, it usually means that they have to really look within to see where they are stuck.
I discovered that my husband had an affair and he was also addicted to drugs. I tried to divorce him. Shortly after that, I also discovered that I was pregnant.
I went back to doing physical labor shortly after our son was born. My husband's addiction worsened. I threw out his drugs whenever I found them, and he beat me when he could not find them. He tore up my Dafa books. I knew that I did not do well and made him commit more sins.
My father-in-law was really upset with his son and, when he scolded him, they ended up literally fighting. His father also gave up on him. “Whatever he wants to do will be fine with me, even if he overdoses. It would serve him right.”
His mother also felt helpless and didn't know what to do. I worked very hard to pay his debts, but not hard enough. I was exhausted and resented him. I felt awful and cried a lot.
Other practitioners saw my situation and asked me to join their Fa study group. I began to study the Fa attentively with them. The more I studied the more I realized my relationship with my husband was predestined. I gradually learned to let go of my resentment.
I memorized Master's Fa whenever I felt stuck.
“Forbearance is the key to improving one’s xinxing. To endure with anger, grievance, or tears is the forbearance of an everyday person who is attached to his concerns. To endure completely without anger or grievance is the forbearance of a cultivator.” (What is Forbearance (Ren)? Falun Dafa Essentials For Further Advancement)
“When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” (Zhuan Falun)
When a practitioner was arrested, I decided to go to the police station to clarify the facts of the persecution to the police. When I arrived, the upset feeling that I used to have and the resentment towards my husband dissolved.
I felt very sorry for my husband; he could not quit the drugs and he suffered a great deal when he went through withdrawal.
“If you want to practice cultivation, human sentimentality must be relinquished.” (Zhuan Falun)
I realized when I went to help rescue my fellow practitioner that my compassion was awakened. I needed to let go of sentimentality toward my husband so I could treat him with compassion.
One day my husband told me, “I am sorry that I have let you down over the years. I will quit drugs and find a job to support our family.”
I believed this happened because I had changed—I was able to think about him and treat him well. He eventually quit his drug habit and changed. My husband now really enjoys his son.
His attitude toward Dafa also changed. He helps me when I make truth-clarifying materials; he drives when I go out to hang banners. His health has improved and we have almost paid off his debt.
My in-laws witnessed the change in their son and were very impressed. They were very grateful that I did not give up on him.
“It was because I practice Falun Dafa,” I said. “Otherwise, I could not possibly have handled it so well. We have to thank our Master and Dafa.”
Thank you, Master!
Category: Improving Oneself
