(Minghui.org) I noticed that my attachments are reflected by the people around me.
I once wanted to tell a few of my colleagues about Falun Dafa at lunchtime. Yet, I did not get an opportunity because they first talked about food and discussed where peppers were produced. Then they spoke about Hong Kong's housing and commodity prices before jumping to the history of Hong Kong. When talking about history, one colleague also tried very hard to recall the details of a historic event in order to show off his knowledge.
I knew in my heart that my colleagues were waiting to learn the truth. However, I wondered why I did not get an opportunity to do that.
Looking inward, I noticed that the topics discussed at lunchtime were all related to my own attachments. I have been obsessed with eating and always thought about what I wanted to eat. So, my colleagues talked about food. Recently, I became interested in the culture of Hong Kong and took quite some time to read about the city's old movie stars. My colleagues, therefore, talked about Hong Kong for almost the entire lunchtime.
In addition, I have been obsessed with ordinary people's knowledge. I wanted to enrich my knowledge in all aspects of history and economics. I hoped to use this to clarify the facts about the persecution better. But I unknowingly was attached to the desire of proving myself. The colleague who showed off his knowledge of history was a reflection of myself!
In the past, when I was in a good cultivation state, sometimes I didn’t even have to make any effort to bring up the topic of Falun Dafa. My colleagues would take the initiative to ask me about it during dinner. It seems that sentient beings are waiting for Dafa.
Recently, I had slacked off in my cultivation, and my everyday attachments piled up. As a result, it was difficult to approach others about Falun Dafa. Sometimes, even when I brought it up, others were not interested or did not even give me a chance to continue.
I realized that it is really important to cultivate well! My goal is to cultivate “‘til no single omission is found.” (“Cultivating Amidst the Delusion” from Hong Yin) In the process of spreading the truth about Dafa, I have realized that when my cultivation state is not good, it may cause irreparable losses and impact the salvation of all beings in this critical last period of Fa-rectification.
Therefore, daily Fa study, sending forth righteous thoughts, and practicing the exercises are all vital. If any attachments are discovered, it is best to get rid of them quickly.
Category: Improving Oneself
