(Minghui.org) I received a copy of Zhuan Falun in 1997. I liked the book very much, but I did not realize that it guides people to cultivate until I began cultivation in 2011.

I am deeply grateful for Master's guidance and protection in the last eight years. I would like to share my experiences with other practitioners.

I work in a government office and have many colleagues who get along well. I often tell them about Falun Dafa, and they know that I am a practitioner. Those who understand the persecution have already withdrawn from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its youth organizations.

Before the New Year holiday, I discovered that some of my colleagues were spying on me. It was very hard for me to accept that. They knew Falun Dafa is good, so I wondered why they stood on the side of the evil and participated in the persecution. My resentment surfaced, and I had a hard time suppressing it.

A couple of months ago, the CCP members in our office watched a video slandering Falun Gong. The attitudes of my colleagues changed after they watched the video. They avoided eye contact with me and no longer talked to me. Sitting in the office, I sensed the evil gathering and felt suffocated. Everyone seemed busy, and nobody was talking. Since that day on, I intensified sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil.

Several days later, I noticed one colleague behaving rather strangely: when I went to the bathroom, he came, too. When I stayed in the office, he would leave. Whenever I had visitors, he would pace around us; he would even ask me who the visitor was. After a few days, I realized he was there to monitor me. That was the only reason for his peculiar behavior.

When I realized what he was doing, my heart stirred. Resentment, combativeness, and fear all surfaced. And then I noticed the colleague I was closest to also changing. One after another, including the manager, everyone had a change of attitude and behavior, which alerted me that they were there to monitor me. I felt as if I was surrounded by evil with eyes everywhere—I had completely lost my freedom.

I knew it was not right, so I intensified my Fa-study and sending forth righteous thoughts. But my heart was not settled. I resented them, but I also felt pity for them. I searched within and found many attachments: fear, reputation, and resentment. But I could not get rid of them, so I asked Master to help and enlighten me. Master's Fa teaching reached out to me:

“Imprisoned as you are,don’t be sorrowful or sadCarry on with righteous thoughts and actions,and the Fa is with youCalmly reflect on the attachments you haveRemove your human thoughtsand evil will naturally die out”(“Don't Be Sad” from Hong Yin Volume II)

I realized that being monitored like this felt as if I was in prison. But what should I do? Fa teachings continued to inspire me:

“As I've said, everything that happens today in the ordinary society is the result of Dafa disciples' thoughts. Even though the old forces do exist, if you don't have those thoughts they can't do anything. When your righteous thoughts are strong enough the old forces can't do a thing.” (“Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in Philadelphia, U.S.A.”)

Master taught me again:

“You know, with cultivators, the following is often said: only when you have an attachment will you be affected inside; if you don’t have an attachment, it will be like a breeze passing over you—you won’t feel a thing. If you hear someone say that you want to commit some horrible crime, you’ll just find it amusing. (Master laughs) You will think, “How could that be possible?” and will laugh it off.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the 2014 San Francisco Fa Conference”)

I continued reading:

“If you did not have the attachment, the bad people would not appear, and the old forces would not have arranged it. This is just obvious. If you do not have the attachment, why would they arrange this? This would be equivalent to them making an unnecessary move, and that would have given me the handle to punish them.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2016 New York Fa Conference”)

After the Fa teaching, I realized it was my attachment that brought on the tribulation—my fear of death was intensified by the event. I was afraid of being arrested, sentenced, and persecuted to death or have my organs taken while still alive.

When I finally realized this, I began to completely negate the old forces’ arrangement and eliminate my attachments. But it was not that easy; these tribulations still come and go to torment me. Other practitioners pointed out to me that they were all false impressions and just to negate them. They also reminded me that every Dafa practitioner has power and, with Master with me, why should I still be afraid?

I began to recite Master's Fa and send forth righteous thoughts whenever my fear surfaced. Little by little, my fear was chipped away, and my heart returned to peace.

I also found another attachment—I was looking down upon my colleagues. I was measuring them with the Fa teachings that I had learned. How could that be right? The Fa teachings were for me to abide by and follow.

I discovered that I was kind only on the surface. I should not have resentment, and I should cultivate kindness. I finally understood that it is the most powerful thing as Master taught us:

“Buddhas are kind, for sure. But that compassion is a manifestation of the great power of Buddha Fa. No matter how bad a person may be or how wicked something may be, things as strong as iron and steel will melt before the mighty power and compassion of Buddha Fa. That’s why demons are scared when they see it—they are really afraid. They will melt away and vanish. This is absolutely different from what man imagines.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Western U.S. Fa Conference”)

I realized that I was wrong: I resisted the persecution, but I still acknowledged it. How could that be right? My colleagues were being used and manipulated by the old forces; they were pitiable to begin with.

The old forces wanted me to eliminate them by instigating my resentment and hatred—how evil! I am a being who cultivates kindness; the people around me are all related to Master and me, and I have to inspire them with my kindness. I have to let them truly feel the kindness and broad heart that a Dafa practitioner has through my words and deeds.

When I truly cherished each and every life around me, I took the opportunity to work and share time with them. Everything changed. They treated me even better than before. It is true that when I do not have the attachment, the tribulation cannot exist.

Thank you, Master, for enlightening me, inspiring my righteous thoughts, and negating the old forces completely. You have eliminated the persecution of me and sentient beings and allowed me to validate the Fa and save sentient beings. Thank you, Master, for your compassionate protection.

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