(Minghui.org) I started cultivating Dafa in 1995. I did not understand the importance of studying the Fa at first. After I saw the nine-day Fa lectures, I realized that studying the Fa is very important, that the Fa is great, and that it teaches us to value virtue, be kind, and conduct ourselves according to Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
I started studying the Fa with a group every evening after work. I also started going out to promote Dafa to the public, to set up group Fa study sites, and to organize new practitioners to watch Master’s Fa lecture videos and exercise teaching videos.
Since I spent much less time with my husband, he became unhappy and talked about getting a divorce. Bearing the pressure, I did not give up learning the Fa and continued to go to group Fa study. Gradually he accepted the situation and stopped talking about divorce.
Maintaining My Xinxing
One time a fellow practitioner thought that I had moved our group practice to a different site, away from her home. She was angry and yelled at me during a group Fa study.
I replied calmly, “I don’t know who did this.” She pointed her finger at me and said, “So don't you know what you were doing? Do you think you cultivate well? Then why do you still have those dark spots on your face!”
Our intense conflict stunned everyone there; they all looked at me.
I had been very attached to the dark spots on my face. Her words, like a sharp knife, stabbed deep into my heart. I held my hands against my chest and kept reminding myself to maintain my xinxing. I did not say anything. Everyone left.
The next day when it was time to go to Fa study, I was very conflicted: “Should I go? It's still in her home.”
I decided that, as a practitioner, I should go. For several days, she kept giving me dark looks. I felt very depressed.
One day after the study, I said to her, “We are all practitioners and we have nothing to hide. Let’s talk about it.” Before I could finish, she said angrily, “Who are you? Why should I talk to you? Please read the Fa more and improve.”
I kept going to her home to study the Fa. A couple days later, she and her husband came to my home. She was weeping. “I'm sorry,” she said. “I misunderstood you. I know that you are wholeheartedly for Dafa and for everyone.” She kept crying and apologizing. I told her, “Don’t worry. We are Dafa practitioners.”
We cooperated very well from then on.
Dafa Helped Me to Overcome Difficulties
Master said:
“To put it more simply, as long as you read Dafa, you are changing; as long as you read Dafa, you are elevating. The boundless content of Dafa plus the supplementary means—the exercises—will enable you to reach Consummation.” ("Melt into the Fa" from Essentials for Further Advancement)
I used all my spare time to read and memorize the Fa. I recited Fa or sent righteous thought as I walked, took the bus, and did housework. I still do. The past 20-plus years that I have cultivated, I have slept only four or five hours a night, and sometimes only two or three.
I understood that only by immersing myself in the Fa could my thoughts be based on the Fa and to reject the old forces’ interference when I encountered difficulties.
Once while I was detained in a detention center, my husband came and wanted a divorce. After signing the paper, on the way back to my cell I suddenly felt dizzy; I had to lean against the wall for support. Just then Master’s Fa appeared in my mind:
“For a cultivator, all the frustrations he comes across among everyday people are trials, and all the compliments he receives are tests.” (“A Cultivator is Naturally Part of It” from Essentials For Further Advancement)
The dizziness immediately disappeared and I walked back to my cell as if nothing had happened.
The next day, Master arranged for me to have some physical symptoms. The detention center released me unconditionally.
After I returned home, the “symptoms” went away and my husband never mentioned divorce again. Fortunately, my husband also started cultivating Dafa in 2015.
Doing the Exercises Diligently
I have been doing the Falun Dafa exercises since I began cultivating, no matter where I am. I would feel empty if I missed the exercises for even a single day.
I started doing the exercises with a group every day before July 20, 1999. The Chinese Communist Party (CCP) destroyed our group exercise environment after July 20, 1999, so I did them at home. If there was an emergency and I missed my normal exercise schedule, I would make up the exercises by sleeping less.
Once I had symptoms of a severe flu, with a high fever and severe pain in my joints. I had no desire to eat or drink. I just laid in bed for six days. A thought suddenly crossed my mind: “I am still feeding you!” This referred to the karma that was interfering with my physical condition.
Master said, “When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.” (Zhuan Falun)
I then stood up and did the four standing exercises with great effort. I felt much better, however, and the symptoms were all gone.
Master said, "Once Your Thought Is Righteous, Evil Will Collapse" ("What's There to Fear" from Hong Yin Volume II)
My father was hospitalized before passing away, and I took care of him in the hospital. At night, after all the patients had been tended to and were resting, no matter how late it was, I would do all five exercises before I went to bed.
I clearly understand that Master is bearing countless hardships and difficulties to offer us the precious opportunity to cultivate Dafa. We must cherish this opportunity. Some practitioners do not do the exercises diligently. How can one be a Dafa practitioner without doing the exercises?
Running a Material Production Site
After the CCP started to persecute Falun Dafa, a local practitioner asked me to help make flyers to tell people about Falun Dafa and the persecution. Because I was afraid, I did not do it.
I was at a different area in 2002 and lived in a rented apartment. A coordinator wanted to give me a printer and a computer so that I could help make informational materials. I agreed just to save face. But after the practitioner left, I felt very uneasy and could not eat or sleep due to anxiety. Since my xinxing was not right, the practitioner did not bring the equipment.
After I returned to my hometown area in 2004, the coordinator asked me again to make Falun Dafa materials. I asked an elderly practitioner who was delivering the flyers, “Where do we get things like that now?”
He told me, “Another practitioner makes them after work in the evening. He then brings them to his work the next morning, and I go pick them up.”
I was moved to tears thinking about how hard these practitioners worked to follow Master’s arrangements. I decided I would make materials, too.
One time the printer head stopped moving while it was printing. I asked a more technically-minded practitioner for help, but he was very busy and couldn't come for a week.
One day I said to the printer sincerely, “You are also a life chosen by the Fa. How fortunate you are! We should work together well to save more lives. Don’t be interfered by the evil so that you will have a good future.”
The printing head started moving back and forth. I was deeply moved and tears ran down my face.
I have now been making materials seven days a week ever since. And I’ve worked without a break for 13 years under Master’s protection.
Saving Lives with a Sincere Heart
Master said, “Make known the truth and get rid of evil spirits” (“To Save the World” from Hong Yin III).
In telling people about Falun Dafa and the persecution, I’ve paid attention to how to explain the facts more clearly. I thought that, if I could explain clearly and help even one person understand Falun Dafa better, a celestial body would be saved.
One time I approached a middle-aged woman and tried to talk to her. She waved me away and kept saying, “I don’t want to hear it! I don’t want to hear it! Many people have already told me.”
I walked with her and kept talking to her. Eventually my words moved her. She stopped walking and listened to me. Finally she said, “I joined the Young Pioneers, one of the CCP organizations. Please help me quit it. Several of you people have tried to talk to me, but none of them said it the way you did. Now I understand.”
Yet I just did what Master has asked us to do. Master said, “…, the ‘three withdrawals’ is not the goal, clarifying the truth to save people is the goal.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2016 New York Fa Conference”)
When I met the people who had already quit the CCP and its organizations, I also tried to talk to them more about Falun Dafa and the persecution and to advise them to help their families quit the CCP.
I’ve encountered all kinds of people: some of them have given me dirty looks, some verbally abused and ridiculed me, and some tried to turn me away.
These encounters exposed many of my attachments, including the attachments to fame, resentment, and the competitive mentality. In the process of telling people about Falun Dafa and the persecution, I’ve continually discarded these attachments and improved myself. Gradually, I’ve been able to tell people about Falun Dafa and the persecution with a genuinely calm and peaceful mind.
I understand that the process of saving lives—especially when facing those who give me a hard time—are good opportunities to expose my attachments and that only by cultivating myself well and not letting up in clarifying the truth can I return home with Master.
