(Minghui.org) I began practicing Falun Dafa in 2013. The Soviet Union had already disintegrated by the time I was born, but the vicious ideas cultivated by communism still got into my mind.
I was in a state of struggle with Heaven and Earth, and I was a vulgar and brazen feminist. I thought that everything was possible for me. I achieved my goals with arrogance and violence. By the age of 17, I already had many health problems: stomach pain, pediculosis, and depression. In addition, envy attacked my consciousness. I always believed that others were better than me, and I brought trouble to people because of envy.
When I started cultivating Falun Dafa, I realized that such behavior hurts people around me; it was unkind and prevented me from cooperating well with fellow practitioners in truth-clarification projects. Gradually, my impudence and feminism went away, and I developed softness and indulgence. However, I am still far from the level of cultivation that befits a Dafa practitioner. By improving and clearing my thoughts, I become awakened to my true, kind character.
After reading the book Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, I felt Master cleansed my body and soul from the destructive communist ideology. I felt good and pleasant. Falun Dafa has given me inner peace and harmony.
Once, a university instructor saw my benevolent character and asked, “Do you have any enemies at all?” I said that I try not to be angry with people. This instructor later came to our group practice site and art exhibition.
In the process of getting rid of communist factors, I became kinder and more compliant. My relatives also benefited from it.
I would like to share my cultivation experience and tribulations that I went through along the way.
Clarifying the Truth on a Popular Social Network
To date, 300,000 people have learned the facts about Dafa through the popular social network Vkontakte. I try to clarify the truth in this environment every day and always feel Teacher's help. Sometimes when too many people register, I have to stay awake the whole night, but the exercises help me to restore my strength.
I tell people about the organ harvesting of practitioners in China and the self-immolation hoax on Tiananmen Square. I attach photos, videos, and traditional Chinese songs. Some Chinese people ask for the book of Falun Dafa. If some Chinese are dissatisfied or angry, I write to them that I always believe that the Chinese are a very polite nation; this softens the conflict, and some of them apologize.
When attachments to struggle and to myself surface, I cannot communicate in a friendly manner, and Chinese participants block me. This used to happen often, but gradually I realized the problem and improved my character. Master revealed wisdom to me, and now I seldom get blocked. Some Chinese people tell me, “I did not know that Falun Dafa is so great.”
I also spread information about traditional Chinese paintings. Fellow practitioners started groups on traditional Chinese songs and stories. Chinese people like that. Now, about 500 Chinese send messages every day.
Once I had a bad toothache. A nerve in it was throbbing, and I could not sleep. However, every time I began to clarify the truth, the pain was gone.
When there was interference that could prevent me from reaching new Chinese people, I looked inward and discovered elements of laziness and lust.
I often met with increased interference when I did not do the exercises. Having understood this, I began to do the exercises every day, and the demonic interference became much less.
Difficulties Arise from Interference and Attachments
In the beginning, when I did not study Fa a lot, I had extreme thinking, and old forces interfered with the projects of truth clarification in which I was involved.
One day my mother closed me in a room and made me write that I would not sit at the computer. I signed the paper but felt it was unfair that my brother could sit at the computer while I could not. My understanding of the Fa was so low, quite like an ordinary person’s thinking! Instead of eliminating evil with righteous thoughts, I was confused and talked to my mother about the divine too emotionally.
In the same evening, I continued to explain the facts to my mother, and she did not protest. From this incident, I realized that when I do not express kindness and patience and do not cultivate diligently, the old forces would use my mother to interfere with me.
One day a mother of a student came to my mother's class and told me that I looked young. I told her that I practiced Falun Dafa and wrote down the phone number of our coordinator for her. Learning this, my mother grabbed me by the collar furiously and kicked me out of the classroom, saying I could no longer go to her work. I told my mother that our dean was also practicing qigong and that it was a good thing.
But I could not achieve a good result because my understanding of the Fa was not rational and mature. Now it would be enough to have one thought to eliminate the evil because I got rid of many entrenched notions and acquired a deeper understanding of the Fa. Gradually, my mother changed her attitude, and she even admitted that Falun Dafa saved us.
Truth Clarification
My husband also practices Falun Dafa, and he is a kind and considerate person. All my relatives respect him very much. Thanks to him, they have no concern for me and realized that Falun Dafa is good. He showed the exercises to my grandmother and uncle, and he explained the truth to my father more deeply. I am very grateful to him.
When we were just married, I was jealous because his mother and sister held a good attitude toward Dafa and visited the Zhen-Shan-Ren Art Exhibition, while my relatives did not. Later, I thought that I should instead look inward more deeply and analyze how he relates to my mother and sister. I saw how naturally he took care of them, how kind and attentive he was. My husband set a good example of communication culture, and I am very grateful to him for this.
We learn each other’s positive qualities. When we cooperate well, we feel how Master supports us in clarifying the truth. I try to get rid of selfishness and the desire to show off, which greatly interfere with communication with fellow practitioners and validating the Fa. Non-practitioners told us many times, “I see you are very kind.”
Once we planned to go to clarify the truth to Chinese students. My cheek was swollen the day before. I was upset and thought that I had to postpone this visit because I could not say anything. But then I thought that I had too high an opinion of myself and that the interference came because of my attachment to self. I thought that I could do it better then others. I decided that my husband would do it without my help. We did not cancel the event, and he went to speak to Chinese students.
The students listened to him attentively, while they often ran away from me. I think that it was because of my desire to show off. Later, I also talk to them and clarified the truth to them in Chinese. We had a very long conversation, after which one Chinese student said, “We see you are good people.” One of them said, “Truthfulness, Compassion, and Tolerance are very good principles.”
The next day we went to the FSB (Federal Security Service in Russia) and told an employee about the persecution and organ harvesting from Falun Gong practitioners in China. He said, “I saw you distributing books to the Chinese that were published in the United States.” We told him how the Chinese Communist Party purposefully turns people against America because it defends freedom of religion and human rights. We had a very friendly chat, and I felt that he had softened after our communication.
Before the visit to the FSB, we had a fear and certain confusion in our minds. We understood that this was very important, but we did not know how to clarify the truth to the employees of this particular institution.
Later, I remembered Master's words: “'When it’s difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it’s impossible to do, you can do it.'” (Zhuan Falun)
I developed a righteous understanding, and our communication was not difficult.
We also started a practice site in the park next to our house. Many people learned about the goodness of Dafa, the exercises, and the persecution as a result. My husband teaches people the exercises, clarifies the truth and tries to explain the facts to people deeply.
We previously had fear because we took the responsibility for doing things. But one day, when we went to the park to do the exercises, one of our friends came up to us and said that she would practice with us. She also invited more people. We knew that Master supported and inspired us because we had a righteous thought to open a practice site but did not know how to start. About 10 people came to us immediately, and they learned about Falun Dafa and how to do the exercises.
There are still many loopholes in my cultivation. I will try to make every effort to do the three things well, save more sentient beings, and fulfill my mission as a disciple of the Fa-rectification period.
This experience is my limited understanding. If something is not in line with the Fa, please compassionately point it out.
Thank you, honored Master! Thank you, fellow practitioners!
