(Minghui.org) My father hadn't heard of Falun Dafa until the media in China continuously slandered it. He remarked, “Whatever the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) suppresses must be something great!” He was eager to learn more and asked me to help him. We looked everywhere, but couldn't find any information about how to practice.
One day, I found a DVD in my bicycle basket. Although there was no cover, I discovered it was a Shen Yun Performing Arts DVD! I was moved by the singing: One female singer's voice was pure and resounding. I showed the DVD to my husband, and we both became eager to practice Falun Dafa.
My father died in April 2010. Shortly afterwards, I obtained a copy of Zhuan Falun, the main book of teachings. I felt sad that my father didn't get the chance to read it. Nonetheless, my husband and I committed ourselves to becoming practitioners.
A few months after I began practicing, I met an older practitioner. I wanted to read Master's recent lectures, but I couldn't find them. The practitioner only had truth-clarification flyers, which she gave me. I passed them out in the areas she suggested. Each day, she gave me 500 flyers, and I would distribute all of them. Later, she gave me 100 DVDs of the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party, and I also distributed all of them.
One day, I was caught by a security guard and managed to get away, but not before he confiscated my bicycle and bag. My husband was very angry and ordered me to stop going out and distributing flyers. I blurted out, “I feel that I was born to practice Dafa.” After I said this, I felt totally immersed by a wave of positive energy. Since then, my husband never tried to stop me, and we no longer have any family conflicts.
Another time, I was abducted by a policeman. I was worried about protecting the truth-clarification materials at my house. The more I worried, the more exhausted I felt. So I decided to allow Master (Li Hongzhi) to help me handle the situation. After I had this thought, I felt relieved. No matter how intensively the police interrogated me, I didn’t say a word.
Three days later, my husband came home from Beijing. He contacted some practitioners, and they moved all the materials out of our house. Then he called the police and told them that I was missing. They came to our house but didn’t find any Dafa-related materials, so they released me. I knew that Master was protecting us!
I knew the reason I was arrested was that I had not studied the Fa enough, and I had a poor understanding of cultivation. After I came home, the first words my husband said was, “If you had renounced Dafa, I might have stopped practicing too.” I was then determined that I would never renounce Falun Dafa because I wished to set an example.
One thing that made me feel particularly happy was an elderly practitioner gave me copies of all of Master's recent lectures. I got what I longed for!
After more than twelve police officers came to ransack my home and confiscate several of my personal belongings, all my neighbors knew that I was a practitioner. After I returned home from a brainwashing center, I put up messages outside about the importance of quitting the CCP. I wanted my neighbors to know the truth about the persecution.
Afterwards, I was told that someone reported me several times. However, the police simply ignored the reports. Some of the banners I posted are still there.
Later, I was arrested several times, but each time I came out with righteous thoughts and the help of fellow practitioners. I feel the reason I was arrested was that I was still lacking in cultivation.
On August 1, 2017, police officers saw me distributing truth-clarification materials. They arrested me in front of a large group of people and someone called the 610 Office to come to the police station to identify me.
The next day, they sent me to a detention center. The detention center would not accept me because I failed the medical examination. The policeman who brought me there called the prison officials and asked them to detain me.
When he read the prison rules to me and told me to sign, I replied, “I only follow the principles of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance and try to be a good person.” The policeman then shouted, “Can your Master save you now? Why don’t you call your Master to save you now? Call your Master!”
After a while, the supervisor called and told them to release me. The policeman who berated me was dumbfounded and said, “It seems that your Master is saving you!”
I told the policemen who drove me home, “Please remember that 'Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!”
I was repeatedly arrested, but I knew it's not what Master wanted.
There were many reasons why I was arrested so many times. I realized that I didn’t have enough righteous thoughts. Another reason was my attachment to ego. I told the other practitioners: “The police officers need to hear the truth, but it seems that some practitioners are afraid of them. People like me should talk to the police.” My arrogant, show off mentality was a big loophole that the old forces took advantage of.
I realized that because I couldn’t calm down when I studied the Fa, my human thinking and notions interfered with me. I couldn’t memorize the Fa, and I didn’t cultivate myself solidly. Whenever someone offended me, I couldn’t control myself. It seemed like I just wasn't determined!
My home is a Dafa materials production site. I print documents and flyers in the morning, then deliver them to practitioners and buy supplies in the afternoon. At night, I go out to distribute the materials. I rarely had time to calmly study the Fa and send forth righteous thoughts. I regarded doing things as the main part of cultivation. I was so excited when I first received the set of forty-five Falun Dafa books, but I still haven’t finished reading them.
Because I was isolated for many years, I seldom interacted with practitioners and did not know how to look inward when facing conflicts. I didn’t realize that I had almost stepped out of cultivation. I didn’t know how serious my problem was until I was finally able to become tranquil while I studied the Fa and understand the deeper meanings of Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance.
When I examined my cultivation over the past few years, I noticed that I have deeply rooted CCP culture hidden in me. It manifests by my always thinking big and satisfying my own vanity. This kind of thinking controlled me and caused me to become conceited. Now I realize that if I really conduct myself according to the requirements of the Fa, I will be able to remove my deep rooted notions more quickly.
For example, each time I was arrested I acted like a winner when I was released. I had a strong mentality of showing off by telling everyone how I was kidnapped and how I came out with righteous thoughts. To fellow practitioners, I acted like I was superior by “teaching” them how to use righteous thoughts.
When other practitioners were in tribulation, I often criticized them by saying that their thoughts were “not pure” or they had “insufficient righteous thoughts.” I harbored feelings of superiority. Practitioners should be modest and humble and always look inside for ways to improve.
Recently, while I listened carefully to the recording of Dissolving the Culture of China's Communist Party, I began to see my strong attachments. I don't want to be arrested anymore. I have to improve myself based on the Fa and become a true Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period.