(Minghui.org) When it comes to memorizing the Fa, I have always been afraid of the difficulty, thinking that I have only received a little education and am old (now 73-years-old) with a poor memory. How am I capable of reciting that thick book Zhuan Falun? However, upon observing that all of my fellow practitioners were memorizing the Fa and many who have recited the book many times are in their seventies or eighties, why can't I?
With the encouragement of fellow practitioners, I made up my mind and began to recite the Fa at the end of last year. In this process, I have really become aware of the benefits of it. I would like to tell you a story that took place in the process of reciting the Fa.
Master told us:
“Your xinxing cultivation has already made progress if, for instance, when someone swears at you among everyday people, you do not say a word and feel very calm; or when someone throws a fist at you, you do not say a word and let it go with a smile. Your xinxing level is already very high. So as a practitioner, what should you obtain? Aren’t you going to obtain gong? When your xinxing is improved, your gong will increase. One’s gong level is as high as one’s xinxing level, and this is an absolute truth.” (Zhuan Falun)
When memorizing the Fa, I am reading one paragraph repeatedly. The more I recite it, the more I have learned it by heart. I have gradually come to realize the Fa principles. There is a sentence that has been spoken by the ancients: “When a book has been read a hundred times, its implications will naturally appear.” I do feel it's like that. Before I started reciting the Fa, I only generally read it and understood the superficial meaning without realizing its deeper connotations. With my repetition of each paragraph, I do have the feeling that its connotations naturally appear.
I have now put what I have realized from the Fa into practice. Recently, one of my neighbors told me that they were going to build a house and needed to use some of my family's land. I said okay without hesitation. At that time, I thought: “It is an important thing to build a house in the countryside, which is also a very difficult thing. Even though we are not blood-related, I feel that we are ultimately one family. Of course, I will certainly approve it.”
Later, his family asked to use the remaining section of my land to give to another family, that is, the two neighbors whose land is next to mine (because his house also took up some of their land). After that, he would return his other land to me. I approved it without hesitation.
A problem took place when he returned his land to me. My original land is equivalent to more than 800 square meters but the size of the land he returned is less than mine but he didn’t tell me about it. Later, only when he arranged to sublet my original land to another person who measured the land with him did I know that he returned less land to me.
After I realized it, I felt a little angry, thinking: “When building your house, you occupied my land which I gave to you without hesitation. My land is square and near a well while your land is neither square nor near the well. In addition, your land is on the side of a road where people are walking and has cars coming and going. Even in this condition, I haven’t said anything about it, but why have you returned less land to me? If you were honest about it, I wouldn’t have any more complaints. You shouldn’t have deceived me! Haven’t you treated me like a fool?” Whenever I thought of this, I felt imbalanced in my heart: “Have you repaid kindness with a lack of appreciation?” I really wanted to talk to him about this. For a long time, I couldn’t let go of this attachment.
Recently, when I was repeatedly reciting the Fa, it seemed that something was surfacing in my heart.
Master said:
“...when someone swears at you among everyday people, you do not say a word and feel very calm; or when someone throws a fist at you, you do not say a word and let it go with a smile. Your xinxing level is already very high.” (Zhuan Falun)
I then was asking myself: “Have I done everything according to the Fa? Although I have read and recited this part of the Fa many times, have I done it in practice or only paid lip service?”
Master taught us:
“Study the Fa and gain the Fa,Focus on how you study and cultivate,Let each and every thingbe measured against the Fa.Only then, with that,is it actually cultivation.”(“Solid Cultivation,” Hong Yin)
I continued thinking that only when doing everything in accordance with the Fa can we assimilate to Dafa, and what I needed to do was, “...when someone swears at you among everyday people, you do not say a word and feel very calm; or when someone throws a fist at you, you do not say a word and let it go with a smile.” (Zhuan Falun).
If I have really done so, would I still be offended by the land issue? Wouldn't I still be worried about my personal losses and gains?” After realizing this, I felt quite relieved.
I then carried on reciting the following sentences: “So as a practitioner, what should you obtain? Aren’t you going to obtain gong? When your xinxing is improved, your gong will increase. One’s gong level is as high as one’s xinxing level, and this is an absolute truth.” (Zhuan Falun)
“Yes, I was still caring about that little bit of personal loss and gain; isn't it a strong attachment? How can I improve my mind and how can my energy grow?”
After I had this realization, I was having lunch and turned on my computer and Minghui.org happened to be playing stories about how ancient people forgave each other when encountering problems. My heart became brighter and I thought: “Even ancient people could still be tolerant, why can’t I as a practitioner?” I knew that this was Master's arrangement: upon seeing my xinxing improvement, Master gave me a hint by using these two stories.
So my heart was calm and I let go of this attachment, and I didn’t want to talk about it more!
This is a short story in the process of my reciting the Fa, which removed an attachment that I couldn’t let go of for a long time.