(Minghui.org) I had about a dozen illnesses before I began practicing Falun Dafa in August 1998. I heard that Falun Dafa had amazing healing health benefits, and I began to learn it right away. All of my illnesses disappeared within a month. I have since been studying the Fa, doing the exercises diligently, and strictly adhering to Dafa's requirements.
I found it difficult to maintain my xinxing when I first started practicing, especially when it came to practicing “forbearance.”
Both my husband and I had bad tempers, and we often had arguments. Whenever he was either cursing at me or beating me up, I returned the same. I don’t remember how many times I cried and wanted to divorce him.
When he was serving in the army, I even went to his boss and asked him to help correct my husband’s behavior. But my husband didn’t change at all. When he was transferred out of the army and began working for an enterprise, he treated me even worse.
Back then, I didn’t know these conflicts were related to my selfishness, competitive mentality, jealousy, resentment, and being full of Chinese Communist Party (CCP) culture. I only realized this after I began practicing Falun Dafa. It all came down to the fact that I hadn’t done well or wasn’t tolerant enough. I also came to understand that in a conflict, looking inward to find where I fell short is the only way out!
Master Li said:
“Forbearance is the key to improving one’s xinxing. To endure with anger, grievance, or tears is the forbearance of an everyday person who is attached to his concerns. To endure completely without anger or grievance is the forbearance of a cultivator.” (“What is Forbearance (Ren)?” Essentials for Further Advancement)
Shortly after I began to practice, I began to feel that cultivation was truly wonderful. My husband, however, was always at odds with me. He often argued with me, swore at me, or even went as far as beating me at will. He was once chopping vegetables and suddenly ran up to me with a kitchen knife pointed at my head and said that he would kill me.
I felt extreme panic, thinking I was going to die. Right at that moment, however, I suddenly thought that I would practice Falun Dafa all the way to the end no matter what! Surprisingly, he turned around and headed back to the kitchen without saying a word. I suddenly realized that he was helping me cultivate forbearance, eliminate karma, and become steadfast in my faith. It was truly “...whoever your karma is distributed to...” (The Fourth Talk in Zhuan Falun)
Officials from the 610 Office later put me in a brainwashing class in an attempt to force me to stop practicing Falun Dafa. I told them, “My husband once held a knife to my head and threatened me, but I did not give in.” The officers replied, “Then there will be no way we can transform you.”
It was just as Master said:
“If you are not afraid, the factor that would make you afraid will cease to exist.” “Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)” in Essentials for Further Advancement II)
After the CCP began persecuting Falun Dafa, my husband came home from work one day and began swearing at me and said that he was going to beat me. I calmly asked him what was wrong. He said, “A [truth-clarification] letter was sent to a police station with the return address of our company. You are the only practitioner in our entire company.”
He was afraid that he would be impacted. I denied that it was me. It turned out that the letter was sent by another practitioner in our neighborhood, and he happened to use my husband’s company as the return address.
I then had another thought, “Having fear and shirking one's responsibility are nowhere near righteous thoughts, nor a true practitioner’s compassion. There is nothing wrong with saving people.” So I told him that whoever mailed it did so to save people!
Upon hearing that, he suddenly hit me. I knew I’d be fine, and in fact, I didn’t even move. My husband practiced marital arts in the army. His arm strength was very strong, and no one could match him. If not for Master's protection, I would have been hurt very badly. Yet I didn’t feel anything.
I was truly grateful for Master’s compassion and saving grace. I don’t know how much he has suffered to pay back my karmic debt. I became teary thinking about it.
That night, Master appeared in my dream and showed me a beautiful scene in a celestial world to encourage me.
My husband is nearly 70 years old. He began Falun Dafa cultivation after he retired. Under the protection of benevolent Master, he hasn’t had any illness symptoms for years. He also managed to pass through a few tests of karma elimination.
During the past 20-plus years of persecution, he had to endure a lot of pressure and hardship because of me. He used to be a cadre in the CCP and was the secretary of a CCP committee when he was 47 years old. Because I practice Dafa, the 610 Office took away his title and demoted him to a staff position. He didn’t get upset, nor did he complain. It was very easy for him to let go of that little bit of fame and self-interest.
He is now doing very well. He has been taking the initiative to go grocery shopping and do the cooking so I will have more time to tell people the truth about the persecution. Despite being a new practitioner, he also goes out to distribute truth-clarification DVDs and calendars to his relatives and colleagues from the army. I am truly happy that he has this extremely precious opportunity!
Regardless of whatever difficulties I face, nothing will change my steadfast faith. Dafa practitioners have formed a will as strong as diamond! In assisting Master to rectify the Fa and save sentient beings, I have no regrets!
I’d like to conclude my sharing with Master’s words:
“Do well what remains to be done, and head toward the future with a cultivation journey free of regret. I wish you much enlightenment and success!” (“To the Canada Fa Conference”)