(Minghui.org) I have been making Falun Dafa truth-clarification materials at home. I recently experienced more interference than usual blocking the Internet, which made it very difficult to access the Minghui.org website.
Many of my notions were exposed in the process. The most prominent one I identified was my eagerness to seek achievement. I also realized that I was harboring grievances, though they became very weak when I remembered that I was a cultivator. If I did not immediately reject them, however, they expanded and influenced my behavior.
I once noticed that my thoughts were not those of a practitioner, and thought I should quickly reject them. I thought, “I am a cultivator. These notions are not me.” As long as my main consciousness was firm, these everyday notions disappeared. But sometimes these things persisted. If I'm a cultivator, a Dafa practitioner, how could I still be impatient and complain?
I also saw another attachment, discouragement. I had not been able to access the Minghui.org website for quite a while. Although I had tried everything, I just couldn't access the site. I realized that this attachment was revealed because I felt helpless and dejected. This was a very dangerous state! I reminded myself that I was a Falun Dafa practitioner, looked inward, and suddenly remembered the following Fa teaching:
Master Li said,
“What does “the Buddha Fa is boundless” mean? It has unlimited ways…” (“Teaching the Fa in New York City,” Lectures in the United States)
Ordinary people may feel helpless and dejected, but we are cultivators! Our help can only come from Dafa, and only from our firm belief in Master and Dafa. With this realization, my feelings of being powerless were gone.
I have studied technology, made materials, and provided support to my fellow practitioners for over 10 years. With every upgrade in technology and production quality, I have felt, “lost in the mountains.” It's a difficult feeling to describe, but it felt like there was no way out. During these times, I always remember the Fa.
As Master said,
“After passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead!” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)
I felt like there was no way out during my recent online experience. The attachments that I had previously exposed were mostly gone. But a cultivator should not have any notions. I was thinking, “Go with the flow when we do things,” but I still couldn’t get onto the Minghui website.
Things got a little better after sending righteous thoughts, but my connection was still unstable. While looking inward, I suddenly remembered Master’s teaching:
“And if things get really bad, you can call out to me.” (“Fa Teaching Given in Washington, D.C.,” Team Yellow Translation)
So I asked Master for help to get me through the Internet blockade and help clear the layers of interference that were blocking my access to the Minghui website. This was actually the first time I had sought Master’s help to unblock the Internet. This “seeking” was not the “seeking” of ordinary people.
The “seeking” of practitioners is compassionate and pure because we wish to save people. This is also an expression of our firm belief in Master and Dafa. I realized that this “seeking” of help from Master can't be seen as troublesome. Master knows when we believe in Him and are acting with righteous thoughts and behavior. He will bless us!
I was downloading the new issue of Minghui Weekly at the time, but I couldn't find the server. I asked Master for help. While the software I used to circumvent China’s Internet blockade was still looking for a server, the new issue of Minghui Weekly was downloaded. It was a miracle! Thank you so much Master!
I have since been able to access the Minghui.org website. Downloading data online and uploading the lists of people who quit the CCP also became very quick. The negative factors' attempts to block me were now in vain!