(Minghui.org) Experience after eliminating the attachment of feeling I was treated unjustly.
I learned Falun Dafa in 1998. I am now 64 years old. A few years ago, I began to have trouble opening one of my eyes. I did not have any pain, but eventually it would not open at all. The doctor said it was myasthenia, a muscle disease.
My father became paralyzed and bedridden. I am the only daughter. I have three brothers who all said that they did not have time to take care of our father, and wanted me to be my father's caretaker. I did not feel that this was fair of them to ask, especially since I only had the use of one eye.
Reluctantly I ran between my home and my parents’ to take care of my father. I also had to help with chores, and then go home to take care of my own home. I also needed to study the Fa and clarify the truth about Dafa.
When I studied the Fa, my mind became clearer and clearer. I knew I was a cultivator, I should not avoid my responsibilities, and I needed to eliminate human notions.
However the feelings of being treated unfairly would return after I finished reading Dafa. I also had feelings of jealousy, resentment, blaming, criticizing, and combative thoughts. I felt my father's sons should take on some of the responsibility of taking care of him.
I knew I was not acting like a practitioner. I had to eliminate these attachments. I began to recite “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance” in my mind. As I recited this, my mind became purer and more peaceful. All other thoughts were suppressed.
I knew it was a fundamental issue of whether I believed in Dafa and Master. I was a cultivator. There could only be “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance” in my mind. A cultivator needs to have the mindset of a cultivator and think first of others. One should not be bogged down in human reasoning. So I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate all bad thoughts in my mind.
My mind became peaceful. When my mother asked me to buy things, I always returned to her the extra money I did not use. I told her: “I am a practitioner. A practitioner needs to always put others first. I would not take care of Father if it was not for Dafa, and I would continue to think my brothers should take care of him.”
I asked my mom to say, “Falun Dafa is good. Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” with me. Through studying the Fa and looking within, I eliminated my human notion of feeling that I was treated unjustly. My eye then opened and I could see again. Thank you, Master.
I am not a big talker. I don't often tell other practitioners when I have a physical symptom. I just know that I need to believe in Master and Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance. I know if I develop any symptom, it will be because I have not been cultivating myself well, or because of karma. I have to work on improving my cultivation state. It is a good thing. Master has arranged it.
Category: Improving Oneself
