(Minghui.org) I am 65 years old and have been practicing Falun Dafa since 1997.
After watching Master Li Hongzhi's Fa teaching video for the first time, I saw the screen suddenly freeze and saw that his hair was curly. I thought, “Wasn't this a Tathagata Buddha?”
I composed myself, took a closer look, and I still saw the same thing. This scene appeared repeatedly.
I felt that Master's teachings were very good, but I didn't quite understand them at the time; I just liked to listen. Afterward, I had a stomachache and diarrhea.
I later realized Master was purifying my body! After practicing Dafa for a few months, my neurasthenia and heart irregularities disappeared. My complexion cleared up as well.
I felt I had received a treasure, and I often dreamed I was flying and saw dragons. After practicing Dafa for a period of time, I dreamed that I was rushing upwards, but I couldn't move my body. But when I went up again to what seemed to be the right place, I could move.
In July 1999, former Communist regime leader Jiang Zemin began frantically persecuting Falun Dafa. I didn't understand why such a good practice was persecuted.
In January 2001, I went to Beijing to petition for the right to practice my faith. After the police arrested me, I was held at a detention center for a month.
In 2007, I told people the truth about Falun Dafa at a grocery market and was reported to the police. I detained for a year and a half.
Helping Save Sentient Beings Regardless of Hardships
I have been telling people the facts about Falun Dafa face to face for more than a decade. In the beginning, I distributed Dafa brochures and posted bulletins.
I was a little scared, initially, but my fear gradually faded with encouragement from other practitioners.
Once, a few practitioners and I went to a community to distribute Dafa brochures. Due to the strict management of the community, non-residents who would be easily recognized. So it was not a good idea for us to all go in at the same time.
I decided to go in by myself. I saw several maintenance workers watering the community garden and that the doors of the buildings were locked. But someone working in one of the buildings left a door open. So I went in and distributed the materials there.
On my way out, I passed by the maintenance workers. Suddenly I felt stifled by a feeling of oppression. Seeing their skeptical looks, I felt as if they were coming to arrest me. Suddenly, I thought, “I am Master Li's disciple. No one would dare to touch me!”
As soon as I had that thought, they suddenly went back to work, as if they hadn't seen me, and I left.
In recent years, I have been going out every day to tell people the truth about Dafa, regardless of the weather. Master is always encouraging me.
When I read Zhuan Falun, the words in the book were shining. It was even more obvious at night.
A few years ago, an elderly family member passed away, and many relatives and friends came to the funeral. I used this opportunity to persuade them to withdraw from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its organizations.
Then I lost the paper with their names on it. I was very upset and ran to a private room, knelt down, and begged Master to help me find it.
After I walked out of the room, I asked a relative if she'd seen a piece of paper with names on it. She told me who picked it up and where it was. Relieved, I silently thanked Master! After I'd calmed down, I looked within to see why my mind was so unsteady and why I'd lost something so important.
It turned out that I'd spoken to someone who worked in the courts and thought he was special. After persuading him to quit the Party, I was overjoyed and felt highly of myself. This was the loophole that was taken advantage of by the old forces.
Improving Xinxing During Family Conflicts
My husband is the eldest in his family of seven siblings, and they all like to come to him for advice on important things.
He is enthusiastic about helping them, but he is indifferent when it comes to my family. As a result, I felt I had lost face and resented him for it.
In conflicts, I didn't look inward. Instead, I used ordinary people's tolerance to cover things up, and over time, my resentment grew.
Every year during the Qingming Festival, my husband would go back to his hometown to worship his deceased ancestors. And when he returned, he would meet with his brothers and sisters. I was never invited to go along.
During this year's Qingming Festival, he brought wine and other things from home and invited his siblings to a restaurant for dinner. My heart sank!
I remembered that my brother and sister had invited him for a meal and, in turn, he never reciprocated. I tried to calm down and decided I would talk to him calmly about it.
When my husband came back, I said, “Did you invite your siblings to dinner? After being married to you for decades, you didn't even want to tell me in advance. Don't you think you went too far? Shouldn't you think about how I feel?”
He immediately blamed me for going out to talk to people about Dafa every day, of often not having time to cook meals, and how I made him worry for my safety. I had never thought about how he felt!
I knew that this conflict was not accidental, and I needed to look inward. I found my attachment of ego: My husband did not do as I wanted, which caused me to become irritated with him. This was all due to my selfishness!
In fact, I hadn't completely removed my attachments of jealousy, resentment, fighting, saving face, seeking fame, and feelings between a husband and wife. I also made excuses for myself and wanted to use ordinary people's ways to change my husband. This was not in line with Dafa's standards of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.
I then understood everything must proceed naturally and that cultivating myself was the key. I knew I had to let go of my attachments!
Maybe Master saw that I wanted to improve my xinxing and immediately arranged opportunities for me.
My elder sister recently told me that my sister-in-law said I was “not good.” As soon as I heard that, I felt hurt. Before my mother-in-law passed away, she lived with my sister-in-law. My mother-in-law later became severely ill, and I helped to take care of her around the clock. I also paid for their food. This went on for about a year until she passed away.
If I didn't practice Dafa, I wouldn't have done that. I calmed down and thoroughly dug out the root of my attachments to seeking fame and upholding my reputation. I felt I did not get her respect.
Master Li said:
“A wicked person is born of jealousy. Out of selfishness and anger he complains about unfairness towards himself.” (“Realms” in Essentials For Further Advancement)
Wasn't Master pulling me up by using what she said? I didn't get it and resented her instead of thanking her. I knew I should sincerely thank her, as she was really helping me. After realizing this, I felt very relaxed, and when I looked back, the conflict was nothing.
The things that practitioners encounter are not accidental. There are always attachments that need to be eliminated.
I have paid much more attention to Fa study. And after sending forth righteous thoughts at 6:00 a.m. every morning, I recite the Fa for one or two hours before going out to tell people the facts about Dafa. Then in the afternoon I study one or two lectures of Zhuan Falun and other teachings.
Protected by Master, I have walked my cultivation path for 20 years.
Thank you, Master, for your compassionate salvation and protection!
Thank you, fellow practitioners, for your help! I must keep improving my cultivation, continue to do the three things well, and return to Heaven with Master.
Category: Improving Oneself
