(Minghui.org) I am 53 years old and I am a new practitioner. In 2015, my husband was diagnosed with brain cancer. The doctor said, “Even if you had all the money in the world, your illness is still incurable.” As a result, we gave up on the idea of surgery and returned home.
A couple of years ago, I received the book Zhuan Falun. I was always busy with my work and other ordinary matters and never had the time to look through the book. I think that it might be due to the fact that my predestined relationship wasn’t ripe yet.
One of my husband’s relatives who lives in another city practices Falun Dafa. When we were on the brink of losing all hope, he retold many stories of people recovering from terminal illnesses after they took up Falun Dafa. It was then that my husband and I started to read Zhuan Falun. We stayed over at his house so we could attend a local Fa study and we began practicing Falun Dafa.
During this time, we were with many veteran practitioners. We would join Fa study sessions and do the exercises every day. In this environment, we improved a lot. We would also discuss many tribulations we had in cultivation. My husband’s physical appearance looked much better. In about six months, his physical state was much better and he was also mobile enough to do many things again. As a result, he asked to go back home.
When we got home, my husband started to slack off in his cultivation. He said, “My illness is gone, so I don’t need to cultivate anymore.” My husband did not realize the seriousness of cultivation. His illness was cured because he wanted to cultivate. In order to cultivate, Master purified his body. However, my husband only regarded Dafa as something for healing illnesses and keeping fit. Not long after giving up on cultivation, my husband’s illness returned.
Master said,
“If you do not follow the requirements of the Fa, you are not a practitioner of Falun Dafa. Because you want to be an everyday person, your body will be reset to the level of everyday people and the bad things will be returned to you.” (Lecture Two, Zhuan Falun)
I advised my husband to continue cultivation, but he did not listen. In October 2016, he passed away.
Master prolonged my husband’s life, but he did not cherish the opportunity to cultivate. It was a pity because he did not realize that Falun Dafa is the way of the universe. Master said,
“If you do not want to practice cultivation, no one can force you—that would be the same as doing a wrong deed.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
My husband did not realize how much Master sacrificed for him.
When people saw that my husband’s brain cancer was gone, they would ask me, “Did the doctor misdiagnose you husband’s brain cancer?” Due to the evil environment I was in, I was scared to tell them the truth and was not brave enough to say that it was Master who saved my husband’s life.
After my husband’s death, I was very depressed. Several practitioners helped me through my toughest times. I was completely immersed in Dafa cultivation and returned to my relative’s place to cultivate and attend their local Fa study. Because I obtained the Fa fairly late, I never slacked off and I strived to be more diligent, keeping up with Master’s Fa-rectification.
Studying the Fa to Get Rid of Attachments
I am grateful to Master for arranging a very good cultivation environment with other fellow practitioners for me. Over these past several years, I've gotten rid of many attachments, especially the attachment to competitiveness.
Before cultivating, I had a very strong competitive mentality. I often fought with my sister-in-law and held a very strong grudge against her. I would refuse to talk to or even meet with her.
Now that I am cultivating, I abide by Master’s teachings. Master said,
“If you compete and fight like an ordinary person, you are an ordinary person. If you outdo him, you are even worse than that ordinary person.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
I decided to do what Master said. In 2018, I greeted my sister-in-law and also voluntarily helped her with some household chores. Our grudge is no more.
There was another issue that greatly impacted me. In 2016, my daughter came to take care of my husband, who was actually her step-father. Her mother-in-law was furious because my daughter had take time off from work. My daughter’s mother-in-law and father-in-law as well as her husband all came to my house to complain. Not only did they hit my daughter and take her cell phone away, they broke a lot of furniture in my house. I reminded myself that I was practitioner and I needed to have forbearance, and abide by the standards of Truthfulness-Compassion-Tolerance.
Now that I think about it, everything happens for a reason. Master said,
“This is because when a conflict occurs, it will take place unexpectedly. But that is not a coincidence—it is for improving your xinxing. As long as you treat yourself as a practitioner, you can handle it properly.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)
Upon reflecting on what Master said, I remained calm. I was very compassionate with them and when they left, I waved goodbye to them and told them to drive safely.
Memorizing the Fa and Printing Out Truth-clarification Materials
When I was studying the Fa with practitioners in the Fa study group, I came to realize that this Fa is truly amazing. Some practitioners were memorizing the Fa, and many practitioners shared their experience of memorizing the Fa on Minghui. org. Master has spoken about memorizing the Fa, but I thought that I was only a new practitioner with barely any education. I was quite nervous and skeptical when I saw Zhuan Falun. To me, it was a a thick book and I wasn’t ready to start memorizing it.
A practitioner encouraged me and said, “Fa study and cultivation is not a matter of who holds the highest level of education. There are quite a few poorly educated practitioners who have memorized the Fa very well.” With practitioners’ encouragement, I started to memorize the Fa. In the beginning it was quite hard. I could only memorize one sentence at a time. Then I slowly started to memorize one paragraph at a time. I managed to memorize the entire book in ten months. When I was memorizing it the second time, it took me only seven months. Now I am starting to memorize Zhuan Falun the third time.
In the process of memorizing the Fa, many ordinary matters did not bother me as much. I was constantly thinking about the Fa and how Dafa has been a huge part of my life. My ordinary attachments and notions no longer existed. I would no longer talk on my cell phone for an excessive amount of time.
I studied the Fa, sent righteous thoughts, and clarified the truth with other practitioners. I became more diligent and wanted to save more sentient beings by clarifying the truth to them. I voluntarily started to print out truth-clarification materials and overcame many technical difficulties while printing them out. I realized that whenever my xinxing was not up to par, the printer would malfunction. I would ask Master to help me and I would send righteous thoughts.
I have learned to download and print out many experience sharing articles and truth-clarification materials. All of what I’ve learned to do is a result of the help of benevolent Master.
