(Minghui.org) Even though I had practiced Falun Dafa for many years, I always struggled to eliminate my attachment to lust. I worked hard to reject it, and when I sent forth righteous thoughts, I added a thought to remove my attachment to lust. I was frustrated and couldn’t figure out why I still had these thoughts. I knew this situation was dangerous for my cultivation, and it made me anxious.
Master must have seen my concern and pointed out several Minghui articles about lust, which I read. One of the articles quoted Master’s words,
“I’m not an ordinary person. I’m a practitioner. You shouldn’t treat me this way, for I’m a Falun Dafa cultivator.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
I understood that lust is not part of my true self. This is a key point, as I always thought that lust was an integral part of me. It’s actually a wicked foreign entity, whereas my true self is kind and pure.
Another article talked about a practitioner who had a strong attachment to lust, which he thought was part of him. One night he dreamed there was a snake next to him. He threw the snake away and no longer had lustful thoughts after that. He understood that the snake was controlling his thoughts.
Deepening My Own Understanding
I realized that whenever bad thoughts emerged, rejecting them wasn’t enough; I needed to use the infinite power of the Fa to destroy them. So I often repeated Master’s words and started to understand them on a deeper level.
“I’m not an ordinary person. I’m a practitioner. You shouldn’t treat me this way, for I’m a Falun Dafa cultivator.” (Lecture One, Zhuan Falun)
If I’m not an ordinary person, who am I? I’m a practitioner, as Master clearly states.
Upon coming to this understanding, I was able to distinguish myself from an ordinary person. Viewing the lustful substances from a higher level, those wicked entities were way beneath me. After I kept reminding myself of this, it became easier to eliminate this attachment.
When Master said, “You shouldn’t treat me this way...” my understanding was that if I didn’t want it and didn’t approve of it, then others couldn’t force it upon me. That meant that I had a choice. So if I, a practitioner, didn’t want it, then those who interfered with me would be going against the Fa principles and thus eliminated.
The last sentence of Master's quote, “...for I’m a Falun Dafa cultivator,” reaffirmed that this was what I had chosen to be.
Power of Dafa
When I recite these words with a firm will, nothing can interfere with me. My righteous thoughts grow stronger, and the power of the Fa automatically destroys all bad substances.
My attachment to lust lessened, and I now have fewer inappropriate thoughts about the opposite sex.
The substance of lust can be sly, however. Sometimes it flashes through my mind and then disappears, or it suddenly surfaces when I’m talking to a woman but goes away before I can recognize it.
At times, I have the illusion that the Fa I’m reading has nothing to do with eliminating lust, so I tend to glance over it. As a result, lustful thoughts keep interfering with me.
Regardless of how lust manifests, as long as I keep reciting the above passage of the Fa, my other dimensional fields are purified. This is the power of the Fa, purifying me and allowing me to assimilate to the Fa.
The other night I dreamed that I was surrounded by dead fish. I felt that they symbolized the fate of my lustful thoughts. I now feel more at ease.
Category: Improving Oneself
