(Minghui.org) Today I returned to the school library and attached some truth clarification phrases inside the books. I hope that other students will be able to see and understand the truth of Falun Dafa.
On the way back home, I thought it would be good to take a little stroll and reminisce about my school life. Sometimes I was diligent, sometimes my human mindset was too strong. As I was reminiscing, I probably unknowingly allowed for a loophole. This type of loophole created a false mood which changed into a feeling of sadness.
When I was young I was introduced to Dafa cultivation by distant relatives. My parents don't study the Fa. I had never bumped into other Dafa disciples around me. Later, the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) started the persecution. Throughout, I bore everything myself. My parents didn't understand. My teacher kept advising me to give up my belief. Whenever I clarified the truth to my classmates they would all mock me. Some of my friends and family knew that Falun Dafa was good due to my efforts; however, I had never bumped into any other practitioners, and I had never participated in group exercises or group Fa study. I thought to myself, how come my cultivation and validation of the Fa is so lonely? The more I thought, the less sense of direction I felt I had.
I remembered what Master had said in a lecture about loneliness:
“They feel isolated and lonely. Unendurable loneliness is most dangerous to humans, and it’s also the greatest tribulation in practicing cultivation.”
“You have no idea that loneliness can ruin everything for a person. In the past, what did monks depend on in their practice of cultivation? Why were they able to succeed in cultivation? Their greatest hardship was loneliness. What hardship did they have to endure? It was the hard-to-endure loneliness. Why could a person who went up to a mountain to practice the Dao succeed in attaining the Dao? Worldly people were enjoying glory, splendor, wealth, and rank. Even poor people, who weren’t enjoying glory, splendor, wealth, and rank, also had kith and kin, and enjoyed earthly pleasures. The monks cultivated hard in the mountains by themselves. Without any contact with other people, that loneliness, which is hard to endure, can wear away a person’s many attachments and various desires. Of course, we’re not taking this path. We aim directly at one’s heart—it’s the fastest way. I don’t think there is time for you to [have your attachments] worn down over several decades.” (“Lecture at the First Conference in North America”)
Then I thought, is this not an opportunity to establish my mighty virtue? I have no Dafa disciples by my side, and a lot of those who are being persecuted still need my help to continuously clarify the truth. Doesn't that mean that they need me? This is the old forces expanding my attachment as a result of my loophole, making me think it's miserable. This type of misery even caused me to be lost for a period of time when I was studying in college. Once, for a long time I was attached to everyday people's reputation, profit and emotions. That was their opportunity to take advantage of my loopholes to persecute me. So, I sent forth righteous thoughts to clean them out.
I thought of the poem, “Cold and Alone Up High” in Hong Yin. I thought about what Master has borne for us, and thought that I'm such a slack disciple. Moreover, I'm a Fa-Rectification Period Dafa disciple. With the most excellent opportunity to be a Dafa disciple in the best period of time, what do I still have to complain about? I ought to strive forth diligently.
My situation is similar to a lot of other young Dafa disciples. Young Dafa disciples will continuously meet with temptation during the long process—particularly those with no Dafa practitioners in their family and who have obtained the Fa based on their predestined relationship. I think that we should all upgrade ourselves amidst this opportunity to establish our mighty virtue. Don't use any excuses—they serve as loopholes for the old forces to persecute you.
I wish for all those fellow practitioners in the same situation to wake up. Heshi!
