(Minghui.org) My daughter and I went to visit my son who was incarcerated in a prison. We both got sentimental, and we both cried. After returning home that night, one side of my face felt a little numb.
I thought, “I must have some notions that are being taken advantage of by the old forces. I realized that this may have resulted from my feelings of sentimentality toward my son. Sentimentality is a human notion that Master [Mr. Li Hongzhi, the founder of Falun Dafa] asked us to eliminate.”
I then felt numbness on one side of my body and was having trouble walking.
The Old Forces Are Not Worthy of Testing Us
I sat down to send forth forth righteous thoughts, but felt that my righteous thoughts were not strong enough. I picked up the phone and called a fellow practitioner. “Please come” I told her. “What’s the matter?” she asked. I said, “Just come quickly.”
Within a short time, three practitioners knocked on my door. They asked me what was wrong. I waved one arm and said, “I am fine, just come in.” Although I said I was fine, the numbness symptoms had not disappeared. They tried to help me, but I insisted on walking on my own. Once inside, we all sat down and started sending forth righteous thoughts without saying a word. Afterward, one of the practitioners suggested, “Let’s do the standing exercises.” I tried to stand up but couldn’t stand still. I then tried to squat and couldn’t hold still, but I was not afraid. We kept sending forth righteous thoughts.
I said to them, “I went to see my son and my heart was moved. The evil took advantage of my loophole.” They said, “We don't allow evil to take advantage of loopholes. We have Master and the Fa, we can rectify ourselves with the Fa, and we don’t need the old forces to test us. The old forces are not worthy of testing us.”
We sent forth righteous thoughts until close to 10:00 p.m. By that time I felt much better. I suggested that they go home, but one practitioner said she was still worried. She said, “How about I stay here tonight?” I said, “No need, I have Master looking after me.” I walked them to the door without any trouble. But my face still didn't feel quite right.
I didn’t really sleep that night. I kept sending forth righteous thoughts to completely eliminate the dark minions, rotten ghosts, and evil factors of the communist regime, as well as the evil lives and elements controlled by the old forces. I didn’t have any fear or concern. I asked Master to strengthen me. I knew I had Master and the Fa, and the evil couldn't touch me.
In the morning, I woke up my husband. He was very happy to see me back to normal, “Look at you, you couldn’t walk straight last night, stumbling everywhere. It's amazing that you're back to normal just overnight. I am not worried now. You can go ahead and do what you need to do as a practitioner of Falun Dafa. I can take care of things at home.”
That morning, I went with a practitioner to clarify the facts about Falun Gong to people. We didn't think about the illness symptoms I suffered the prior day. I had returned to good health, just like Master’s poem said,
“When one is attached to nothing The path underfoot is naturally smooth” (“Unimpeded” from Hong Yin Vol. II)
Letting Go of Sentimentality
My husband went to a neighbor’s home one January evening last year. This neighbor was a widow. I suspected that she and my husband were having an affair because he had extramarital affairs in the past. I was upset and complained to my daughter, “Why is he not dead, as it would save me a lot of worries.” As I was saying that, I felt something coming up from my stomach.
A mouth full of blood came out of my mouth and splashed on the ground. I immediately realized that what I said was not in accordance with the Fa. I slapped my own face and said, “I'm not cultivating speech! Master, I am wrong. I don’t want any attachment, and I will only listen to you.”
I still felt blood coming up my throat. I thought of asking fellow practitioners to help. Another thought then came to me, “I can deal with it myself. I have Master, so I have nothing to fear.” I filled a water bottle with cold water. I kept drinking water one sip at a time, trying to keep the blood down. After a few sips, blood was still coming up. I covered my mouth, but blood came out of my nose. I realized, “This is not right. Perhaps I shouldn’t try to keep it down. This is bad stuff. Master is cleansing my body!” I took a trash can and started vomiting blood and blood clots into it.
I said to Master in my heart, “Master, I am not sick. This is bad stuff that I don’t want.” I stopped vomiting just as I finished that thought. It was ten o’clock at night. I got into bed and then realized that I had my clothes on because I was afraid I would vomit again in the middle of night, and it would be easier if I slept in my clothes. Putting it in another way, I was expecting it. No! I don’t want that attachment. I then took off my clothes and went to sleep. I slept through the night without any problem.
I have since completely let go of that attachment, and stopped worrying that my husband was having an affair. Master said,
“No one knows it after one passes away. You must still pay for what you owe others.” ( Zhuan Falun )
I thought to myself, “I always go out to save people. My husband is also a sentient being. He has a strong predestined relationship with me, and I need to save him too.”
When I let go of that worry, my husband also changed. He said to me, “I already told that woman not to bother me anymore. You can rest assured that we will have a good life together. You are better than anyone.” He then gave me over 10,000 yuan.
I used the money to buy an electric moped. I can now ride to more places to save more people.
Category: Improving Oneself
