(Minghui.org) I developed cold symptoms in April. It affected my Fa} study and my sending forth righteous thoughts. I would add additional thoughts to eliminate sickness karma during regular times of sending forth righteous thoughts. After two weeks my symptoms did not improve. I thought maybe I should send forth righteous thoughts specifically towards sickness karma. After two days, I was fine, and thought it had worked.
A week later, the symptoms reappeared, and I sent righteous thoughts specifically towards sickness karma, but it did not work this time. I carefully searched within: I had not slacked off in doing the {{three things, particularly clarifying the truth, to which I was fairly devoted. I did not find the root and passively endured the symptoms.
Around the same time, a fellow practitioner was taken by the Chinese Communist Party to a brainwashing center. Fellow practitioners immediately organized a relay to send forth righteous thoughts around the clock. Since my symptoms did not improve for so long even with sending righteous thoughts, I decided I would just focus on the fellow practitioner and forget about my sickness karma. After two days, my symptoms disappeared.
Only then did I discover my selfish human heart and realize that I took myself too seriously. If I had paid less attention to myself and more attention to the Fa and others, my symptoms would have disappeared much sooner. After cultivating for so many years, I was still not meeting the standard of a practitioner. I will pay closer attention to this from now on.
Category: Improving Oneself
