(Minghui.org) I was arrested for distributing Falun Dafa flyers in 2004. I was sentenced to four years in prison and held at Lanzhou Prison. I wrote a guarantee statement promising to stop practicing Falun Dafa because I could no longer endure the torture.
Once my mind became clear again, I regretted having betrayed Dafa and felt unworthy of Master Li's (the founder of Falun Dafa) compassion. One day, I thought: Regardless of whether Master treats me as his disciple or not, I will continue to cultivate.
I then wrote down the titles of the poems in Hong Yin on a piece of paper and hid it inside a book I borrowed, so the collaborators would not see what I was doing.
At break time, I pretended to read the novel, when in actuality I was going down the list of poems and reciting them. In the beginning, I could only sit in the double-lotus position for 30 minutes while reciting the poems. Eventually, I was able to sit for a whole hour without feeling any pain in my legs.
The more I recited the poems, the stronger my righteous thoughts became. I also began to do the sitting meditation exercise again during our free time at the end of the day.
Eliminating Fear to Make a Solemn Declaration
During the last year of my prison term, I decided to write a solemn declaration to render null and void the “guarantee statement” that I had written against my will.
There were six other practitioners in the prison with me. I shared my experience and encouraged them to consider taking the same action. They were concerned that writing the declaration would incur severe persecution. I had no fear. I said, “The worst they can do is lock us in solitary confinement, beat us, or shock us with electric batons.” Two of the practitioners later decided to write their solemn declarations with me.
A few days later, a guard called me over. He looked at my solemn statement and said, “Are you serious?” He said he would give the statement to his supervisor. I was not afraid and took the opportunity to clarify the facts to him. He listened attentively.
I was told several days later that my term had been reduced and I would go home at any time. The collaborators also stopped monitoring me. The guards started greeting me and they even gave me 30 yuan to cover my bus fare when I was released.
Clarifying the Truth
At home, officers from the local police station came to “check up” on me every few days. One day, the chief officer took several people to my house. He warned me, “You have to behave yourself and not randomly say things. These guys are either from the province or the county.”
I ignored him and talked openly about Falun Dafa and the persecution. I asked the man who seemed to be in charge, “If you were me, whose illnesses couldn't be healed and lacked financial means, what would you do?”
He nodded in agreement and signaled everyone to leave. On their way out, one of them said, “I am the person in charge of the county. Come see me when you have time.”
Another time, a relative invited me to someone's wedding. Before the ceremony began, I saw a portrait of Mao Zedong hanging in the courtyard. I sent forth righteous thoughts immediately. Soon after, two people took down the photo and replaced it with a big paper-cut of the Chinese character “Good Fortune.”
As long as we do things according to the Fa, Master will help us. Master's said:
“When disciples have ample righteous thoughtsMaster has the power to turn back the tide” (“The Master-Disciple Bond” in Hong Yin Vol. II)
Thank you, Master, for your saving grace. I will do the three things well.
