(Minghui.org) I am a relatively new practitioner who started to practice Falun Dafa in 2014.
After I obtained the Fa, I felt so sorry for the Chinese people who were poisoned by the Chinese Communist Party’s (CCP) propaganda from the time that they were young.
I, too, had been also fooled by the Party's lies and would try to evade Falun Dafa practitioners. I did not want to listen to their clarifying the truth; I did not know that they were risking their lives so that people could hear the truth about Dafa and the persecution.
I competed and schemed for personal gain like everyone else. Money and material benefits were my most important goals. As a result, I developed many illnesses and spent my life savings on medical expenses. I eventually became disabled and lost the will to live.
Obtaining the Fa
A practitioner introduced Falun Dafa to me in 2014. I regretted having believed the CCP’s lies and wished I could have started practicing Dafa much earlier.
Soon after I obtained the Fa, all my ailments disappeared. Now, I am no longer foggy headed. It is such a relief to no longer suffer from illness. My wish is that all Chinese people could withdraw their membership in the CCP and get to know the preciousness of Falun Dafa.
I was a newer practitioner, so I acted like a young bull who was afraid of nothing. I clarified the truth with veteran practitioners but did not yet know about sending forth righteous thoughts. However, Master Li (the founder of Falun Dafa) was always watching over me and helped me whenever I faced any danger.
Letting Go of Fear
At some point, I suddenly started to develop fear, and as I did not send righteous thoughts to eliminate it, my energy field accumulated a lot of bad substances. I thought that everyone I encountered was of bad character. Thus, I thought of leaving my home because I did not feel safe. My thinking was always negative and overnight a lot of my hair turned white.
However, this did not stop me from cultivating. Master saw that I was firm, so I came across diligent practitioners who helped me to turn things around.
I improved very fast on my cultivation path and was able to cross my legs for the one hour meditation in no time. Often, I could feel a warm current coming down from my head to my toes; I would perspire and cried.
Whenever my cultivation state improved, I would go out to talk to people about Dafa and the persecution. However, I still had not completely let go of my attachment to fear. I didn’t know how to reject it and was still immersed in negative thoughts. I even adversely affected a fellow practitioner.
When this practitioner visited, she looked nervous and said that a policeman was in the hallway. Actually, that person was a repair man for the heating system and happened to be wearing a coat with a police emblem on his sleeve. The old forces had created an illusion to mislead anyone who had the attachment to fear.
She blamed me for being responsible for her fear, and said that she would not come to visit me again. This made me rather emotional. Then, I realized that if I had not been practicing Falun Dafa, I would have died from my illnesses. Master is looking after me. What am I afraid of? Then I fell asleep.
When I woke up the next morning, I felt so light.
Master said,
“As I've said, everything that happens today in the ordinary society is the result of Dafa disciples' thoughts. Even though the old forces do exist, if you don't have those thoughts they can't do anything.” (“Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in Philadelphia, U.S.A.” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference II)
Master's Fa told me that my fear was an illusion and nothing worth worrying about. I cried and bowed in front of Master’s photo. He had removed the substance of fear from me.
Master said,
“When your righteous thoughts are firm and when you can repel those things, I remove them for you bit by bit; however much you can do, that's how much I remove for you and diminish for you.” (Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference” from Teaching the Fa at the Conference IV)
From then on, whenever I studied the Fa, every word melded into my heart. I used to feel that my brain was covered by a shell that prevented me from absorbing the Fa. Now, my fear is gone, and I truly feel different!
Category: Improving Oneself
