(Minghui.org) My husband used to work as a public servant, but he was sentenced to prison for abuse of authority and misappropriation of public funds.
A month before he was sentenced, he mortgaged our house to pay his debts without telling me. I did not know about it until the mortgage company came to auction our home.
Our son was in his second year of university, and we needed a lot of money to support him. My meager salary was hardly enough to cover our living expenses, and now we had to pay rent on top of everything. Life became very difficult.
For a while, I hated my husband for the misery he'd brought upon us and forgot to regard myself as a Dafa practitioner. I was trapped in human sentiments and became terribly depressed.
A fellow practitioner heard about my situation and started to come to my rented apartment every day to study the Fa with me and help me improve my understanding. I was very touched by her kindness and gradually felt calmer.
One day we were reading Zhuan Falun. Master said,
“Not only should you not compete and fight like him, but also you should not resent that person in your heart. Really, you should not hate that person. If you hate that person, aren’t you upset? You have not followed forbearance. We practice Zhen-Shan-Ren, and you would have even less compassion so to speak of.”
While reading these words, something touched my heart deeply. I thought: I’m a Dafa cultivator, but I have behaved like an everyday person. Everyone makes mistakes, including my husband. I must not push him into a dead end simply because he did something wrong. I must conduct myself as a Dafa practitioner and not be bothered by what he did. At the same time, I should reason with him and help him recognize his wrongdoing so that he can come out as a new person.
Also, in today’s China, moral standards are going downhill very quickly, especially among those public servants who have a certain level of authority and power. The corrupt social norms were partly responsible for my husband’s wrongdoing.
Stepping back to look within, I realized that what had happened to me was not accidental either; maybe I had harmed my husband or owed him something in my previous lives, and I need to pay him back in this lifetime.
I felt enlightened in my heart and was grateful that he had given me an opportunity to improve my xinxing. A bad thing thus turned into a good thing.
I started to conduct myself according to Dafa’s principles and tried my best to balance my mindset.
Many years have gone by. I have never given up on my husband and often visit him in prison, bringing him food and daily necessities. I care for him and encourage him when he feels down. He is very grateful. I tell him that he should instead be grateful to my Master. If I did not practice Falun Dafa, I would have abandoned him long ago.
My husband tells me that he now recites “Falun Dafa is good” and “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” every day.
I feel very happy for him, because when a person recognizes that Falun Dafa and its principles are good, he has truly been saved. Thank you, Master, for offering every sentient being the chance of salvation.
Thanks to Master’s teaching and encouragement, I was able to pull through at the lowest point in my life. Master said,
“If you consider all the hardship, ordeals, and such that you go through to be bad things, then you are an ordinary person. Hardship is the repayment of karmic debts, and things that don't go so smoothly enable your xinxing to elevate. That holds true for ordinary people as well, in fact--it's all about removing karma, and when someone is rid of his karma he will be well-off in his next life. It's just that people don't realize it.” (“Fa Teaching at the 2008 New York Conference”)
I’m also very grateful for fellow practitioners’ selfless support and help.
I realize that I still have a lot of attachments yet to be relinquished, such as being sluggish, arrogant, and the attachment to personal gain and loss. I’m determined to let go of all these bad substances, walk my path well, and live up to the requirements of a Dafa disciple.
